Sol, I don't know *how* yoiu can handle it. I'm stunned.

[willowteestar]

Hi Journal, 's me again. Yesterday, I started therapy again. Thought I was depressed before, but an hour just beginning to touch on why left me feeling even more fragmented and hopeless. I'll start some new pills tonight; already they're working - my wallet feels lighter, easier to carry

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[laura_seabrook]

my sympathy on your cat.
and, I do believe you, but broken is not always bad.

[laura_seabrook]

um, felt broken for years with the epilepsy. See http://hunter.apana.org.au/~gallae/QueerStuff/emotions/afthought.htm

Perhaps "broken" is the wrong worf. "Pulverized?" "Vaporized?"

[willowteestar]

*I*, even, has little meaning. Every pulse takes another chunk of *I* away. Yet the pulses must continue, to keep this hated body alive. So it goes, time after time. The cries for help grow fainter and more confused.

Sol, whatever now calls itself "I" is not sane, and never will be. Nobody listens, nobody believes.

It's cruelty to let animals suffer needlessly. Are humans not also animals? Why must "I" be kept alive?

Re: Perhaps "broken" is the wrong worf. "Pulverized?" "Vaporized?"

[willowteestar]

Don't have a video camera, and look like something the cat refused to drag in. Haven't bathed in years, had hair washed twice in three years, still desperately need electrolysis Get shaved, poorly, with an electric razor twice a week; teeth get brushed weekly. Sorry, no videos of me.