I Hate Reruns.

[willwright13]

So...where to start...

I've been away for a really long time. And when you've been away for so long it's impossible to stay the same. How am I supposed to return to this? To this old life that I built around the wrong things. To the people who I care for so much, but find that I cannot carry on with them. To find that everything that I loved has

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Nothing I could bring myself to write would feel like enough:

[eyerhymes]

Will,

It's been such a long wait and I've missed you. I've got no questions to ask, if questions aren't something you'd like to answer. I'll make no assumptions about the person you are, or were. I realize that you've changed and I've realized that change can be good. Know that I care about you, know that I'll be here when and if you're ready. Until then, it's nice knowing you're home and it's even nicer knowing that you are well.

I screwed up, I'm sorry.

Re: Nothing I could bring myself to write would feel like enough:

[willwright13]

You did screw up Caitlin.
You screwed up so badly that I honestly felt, at one point, that I wanted absolutely nothing to do with you. But then I think back to all the good times that we had and I can't say that. You were just angry and confused, I understand that. But you hurt my family, you messed things up. If all of that hadn't happened we wouldn't be going through this right now, I'd probably be able to hang out with you guys and things would be normal again. But it did happen, and here are the consequences, for me too.

I love you. Always.

Re: Nothing I could bring myself to write would feel like enough:

[eyerhymes]

Yes, I was angry. I was angry, young and stupid, but I can't take that back. What's done has been done. Blame my immaturity and need for my personal opinion to be known, I don't know. I realize that I hurt your family, and I apologize, but I wouldn't go so far as to say that none of this would be happening had I not done that. Things would be very similar, if not the same, I think. You'd still need time for yourself, away from everyone. Would you not? Regardless, I understand that my actions have bought great consequence. I apologize for that as well. I'll keep my fingers crossed in hopes that all of this can be left behind us with time. Anyway, if we keep talking about it we can't move forward, now can we? :) Take your time, Will. I want what's best for you, that's all.

Congradulations on your Uncle-ism ;)
I love you so much <3

Re: Nothing I could bring myself to write would feel like enough:

[willwright13]

Thanks for understanding. :)

[willwright13]

I know your always there.

You're still my best friend too.

But priorities seem to be taking the lead in this situation. I can't go back to the way I was before. My parents are scared, and I am too. I need time.