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[wiltedorange]

7 minutes to end the week.

Listening to the Messiah, because want some upper clarce music to get me going on the high road, as opposed to going the low road where I've been dragging my feet and heart recently. Mud on the heart. Not v. nice.

It's very London weather out there at the moment - grey clouds have descended upon the city and it's all very

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[red_orange]

I've always wished I could just forget about certain people because they weren't good for me or the situation was suboptimal, but that never seems to work. I think you're doing what you can, taking this one day at a time. The passing of time doesn't seem make the sting of what happened go away, nor that terrible, sad longing that seems to drag on like gum undershoe... but in time even the sharpest feelings dull, tempered by perspective.

What probably makes you tired is that you beat yourself up at every turn--for being human, for loving, for feeling. It's okay that you feel hurt or angry or whatever, but don't compound that pain by judging your own self for being human or saying a crush is "dumb" and thereby penalizing self for having genuinely liked this man. Be kind to yourself and just Be.

[wiltedorange]

In actual fact, I don't want to forget. What I want is to remember, but without the immediate spasms of hurt and sadness. I can also do without the cycle of anger, depression, sadness, feeling that I'm okay, before starting the cycle again.

BUT the frequency is becoming longer.

Very true. And after all is said and done, it's not like I'll never seem him again, or be enemies. Okay, Will try not to beat up, but will not wish crushes on anybody except my worst enemies?

[badgerpdx]

I think I need to come up there and teach you to swing dance... That seems to be the only remaining option.

[wiltedorange]

Deal. I've always wanted to dance, but warn ya - have terrible sense of rythm and two left feet!

Thank you! the image of me trying to swing dance made me smile.