i think comments are now screened...thank-you rissa, um, if it works anyway. *feels confused* i hate being computer ignorant.

yay me yay me yay me

i probably won't be here tomarrow, so it would be pointless to call, or anything of the like, don't ask where i'm going, i won't tell you, i want to be left alone.

goodnight to whoever actually takes the time to read my entries, oh yeah, and thanks for that too.

ok, umm...horrible, rather numb. hurt, deserted, but...

umm, applications today, bad jon mood, almost juvenile visit, guns being pulled.

joey trying to cheer me up now i think, jon hug, then jon fuss. my stomach clinching so bad, it's never hurt so bad, and i've never felt lower. thank-you world for all your lovely curve balls.

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bored, went and got a godawful amount of applications. i even went up to wendy's where joey works and got an application. and guess what? dumb ass me not paying attention, picked up the spanish application. wooo go me. anyway, look at what sexy girl i am....
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and forever seems like so very long, until you remember that yesterday, forever only lasted until today.

today started out well. the atmosphere perfect, the sky overcast and grey with that little bit of electricity, that tension, right before the sky breaks loose. the temperature cool and not cold. and then all went to hell. i feel like, for lack of a better word, shit. i feel completely useless, alone. i feel like a nobody, which will most certainly ( Read more... )

and with every day i watched him fade, until he was gone, evaporated before my eyes ( Read more... )

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