All this has happened before, and all of it will happen again.

[wind_up_girl]

I quit Facebook. Seeing folks who were my friends go on doing what they do after months of no contact. I mean, we had a house warming party and no one showed up. Right now I feel so vulnerable, and seeing all those posts just made me feel resentful and envious. I'm also pretty aware that most people probably "blocked" me. Rather than imagine

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[seraphsoliloquy]

When you say you had the housewarming party and no one showed up, do you mean just your friends or his friends too? Do what you need to do for yourself, those people clearly are not worth your time.

You are not a loser, so please don't say that about yourself. Why do you feel alone? What makes you feel alone? The job situation I can relate to, and I would suggest trying to look for something new but only if you feel you are ready to. Are you still taking art classes?

[wind_up_girl]

Aw, thanks for the good questions. They're just what I needed to hear. Now that it's been a while I can rationally sit back and think about this.

Part of my feelings of inadequacy is that I hit a plateau in my job. And while I am pleased with the level I achieved I feel like I can't or won't be able to progress more. Or even just learn something new!

As for being alone- a lot of our friends from our old town haven't bothered to keep up with us. And at work I'm one of those people who has a position where I don't get to socialize with others as much. Sales guys meet with sales, etc. The new city has been lonely too, but I'm actively trying to join classes (art, yoga, etc.)

...But most people are like... 50+. They have kids my age.

Oh, and no one at all showed up. We were both bummed but then ate the pizza and pie we ordered for everyone.