these are what i bought today.

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i just keep thinking about that one night, not too long before prom (i think it might have actually been the night before prom?), when i had a major breakdown. my boy was taking the SATs the next morning, and came over anyway. rumbled up to my house and pulled me onto his lap and made me feel like everything was going to be ok ( Read more... )

well now is the 15th, and i am back as promised ( Read more... )

last night there was confusion about what was going on, what the plan was. we all waited in the upstairs hallway, outside my room, for the boy (you know... the boy) to finish his shower and come up, so some people could go to shesha the hookah lounge ( Read more... )

valentine's day is coming, and i cherish the utterly unlikely hope that something incredible will happen.

but you never know, right?

i miss my daddy.
i feel lonely and unloved.
i'm tired of being strong and responsible and efficient.

you can watch a live feed from a watering hole in Botswana. go there and do it, it's incredible. so far i've seen a lot of little birds and some deer-like creatures. seriously. this is what technology is good for ( Read more... )

here is another entry about the life of my heart ( Read more... )

man i can't even tell you...
i care about that boy so much.
it breaks my heart.

i just read my sister's latest xanga entry.
and i realized... she's me.
or at least, we're a lot a like.
she talks all the time about what she's feeling, that she can't describe it well but here's what it's sort of like (or whatever), and i know exactly the feeling she's talking about.
she's walking in my shoes.
it's a very strange feeling.