wow, three posts in 2 days. that's crazy ( Read more... )

and also, i want to go home really really badly.
college just isn't comforting.

so basically what happened was ( Read more... )

hello kids ( Read more... )

i am, i am, i am the luckiest.
i love you more than i can ever find the words to say to you. i will fixate on you. i will cry over you. i will sigh for you, long for you, ache for you. i will talk to you in my head, but not out loud. i will write you letters but never send them. i will tell you a hundred times over in the ether, but never ( Read more... )

rather than kiss me you said you'd rather diei miss europe. i miss the freedom. i miss being part of a group larger than myself. a group where i belonged, where i had a unique and important place. i miss the person i was in europe. i think i was different. i was more grown up, older, smarter, funnier. around those people, i was better ( Read more... )

it's hard to seperate myself. i have a xanga diary, see, where i tell certain people everything. i'm more honest there than anywhere else, maybe even including in person. and i don't want to give that brittle china bomb to just everyone. so in order to give the rest of the masses (and i use that term loosely) a view inside my head, a wire into ( Read more... )

well tonight is homecoming. yesterday was the game. it was fun, mostly. valerie was voted homecoming queen. i'm so happy for her, she's amazing. and she was so happy, crying and just glowing, pretty much ( Read more... )

this weekend i used music as a bludgeon for the first time. i pulled on my headphones and turned the music up so loud i couldn't think. because sometimes your mind just needs to be stopped. it was so nice, to sink into the Garden State soundtrack (my new drug) and shut off everything else. The Shins are amazing. Caring really is Creepy ( Read more... )