I've actually missed November...
Well... a month but it felt like at least 1/2 year away from LJ, that's what it felt like to me o_O;
I wonder if anyone still reads my LJ anymore... anyway, A LOT has happened since my last entry until now.
In summary points my entry will be as follows:
- Current Situation
- Church & Choir
- Christmas
- Zelda (Orchestra & Game)
- Random to end
In my last entry (Don't even remember if I mentioned or not) my brother is now in London. He got his job and he just moved there on the 3rd December. I don't remember where he works, it's either around liverpool street in London or around Canary Wharf or Canada Water. Currently he is living at a fellow christian brother's house in....uh was it called Surrey? (I probably got the name wrong again)
Anyway it's around the south east of London. He plans to find a place of his own soon around that area (Actually his initial plan was to live in either Stratford or Layton but now he's more familiar with this area he's living in and hopes to find a place around there) - but places in London are expensive! 8D;
He's doing great, he's not sure of his new job yet he's happy. Hopefully he'll find a place of his own soon (And perhaps a potential girlfriend? XD)
Ever since he left I'm not on my own at home (I was quite nervous driving him to the international airport of Belfast, driving is not hard, it's recognising which road leads to where, THAT hard) it was a miracle I was able to drive back on my own that day he left (Well, right now still a miracle that I still drive around the city, lucky not crashing into any car but was very very risky....)
Thing is a night club had opened up on Halloween and it's right beside our apartment (I'm talking about 1 car parked horiztonally that kind of distance) It was quite disastrous on the first week, they had their bass SO loud that someone said you can even hear them across the river. It's enough they had to open until 2.30pm and the feeling of the bass making your heart beat along with it was not pleasant at all. Luccky they calmed down a week after, the only annoying thing were the increase of drunkards yelling or singing around (Even dog barks are better)
I'm sorry but I'm just talking what I can think of the moment.
So brother is away but currently he still pays for the mortgage and stuff over here for me (my benefits can't really pay it off ^^; ) and now I've started my freelance work since 14th Nov.. though I'm getting a funny feeling I'm just using these 6 months to build up a portfolio of something....and apply work again in the future (After all, it's quite hard to do business like this and I have expected the worse scenario anyway, unless I really did manage but at the end of the day I still prefer to work for someone instead)
I still want to at least find work and stay in England (At least for these 10~20 years) perhaps it may not happen at all, it's just like most of my friends are over there and I would at least like to try and live over there.
The only thing that keeps me sane over here oddly enough is the church I go to (And the business centre that supports me, then there are doctors and dentists, people are nice over here [compared to HK and the occasionally 'just-hate-you-without-any-reason' people] but these are its advantages living in Belfast)
Belfast in a way is quite 'home' for me, but I would like to see if England is more 'home' than Belfast. Who knows? maybe in the end it's still Belfast.
Anyway, I've did a revamp of my site: www.kazeworks.com incase you forgot, I've work in there that's not shown in my deviantart and work in DA not in my website. I admit I've been drawing a lot for devel_icious but I'm quite happy to do so.
I've also open myself more to look for potential projects to do on DA or for myself, there's been something I've been doing and hoping to get at least one by 1st january. Recently I find the non-anime styled way of colouring fascinating.
I'm still doing the 3D game with a friend but in a realllly slow pace. My fault.
I still sing for church (BTW the concert DVD is still not out yet because they've had issues with the quality of either the video or the sound.) I just hope it doesn't snow on Xmas day, wouldn't know how to drive there if that happens. Black ice is not fun x_X
Speaking of singing, we sang & recorded for a composer of hymns and I got a copy of her CD. It's Christian hymns of course, but anyone is free to listen to it if they like. I can share it if anyone wants it because the music she composed (And some she didn't compose but she re-used someone else's arrangement) is really beautiful to listen to. (F-locked only though because she sells the CD and me sharing it like that may not be good for her...)
Church is great for me, though there are always people sort of blaming each other and trying to pretty up their intentions in an arguement or supporting each other and/or had quite a lot of misunderstandings - this happens when it's the whole church, I don't get the feeling if you belong to a bible study group (though it pains my heart hearing the ill gossips of other groups on either my group or on other certain groups, I try to ignore it as much as possible) I love my bible group atm, I became familiar with the people and they're all so nice (To me anyway) it's great to know that people are still lovable.
On the other hand I've been questioning a lot to myself on my realtionship with my mother recently. It's not day one that I always complain about her bad points, though strangely she asked me twice on the phone if I actually missed her or not. It's... a rather silly question to ask because there's no way I would say no. My cousin bugged me via facebook telling me to come back to my mom's home for her (not for my mom but for my cuz, I get the feeling she's doing it for my mom because ever since at least 5 years around ago or so she has not once ever asked me to come.)
Perhaps my mother really do miss me but I really can't do much for her. I can't take over your store, perhaps I can clean help you clean your house but between you and me you should at least be able to feel that you go to work at the night, I work in the daytime, whenever we're a 'family' together you'd always invite people from the outside group when it's supposed to be just for a 'family' thing. Then again, if outsiders are not there, we really have nothing to talk about. It's no different talking on a phone.
I do question myself if I have become quite cold-hearted to her (It's painful if you think about it, but if I stay with her physically I will be the one in pain constantly based on my conscious. I really don't like hearing the bad points of who or whomever, why do you judge others so much so? It's painful.)
But because she is still my mother, as much as I don't like this trait of hers, I do feel sorry for her and still love her for the things she did in the past for me, but the problem is the negative side of her covers the good side of her even more (Perhaps I am being a hypocrite myself too)
Oh I am sorry. I hope my flist having a better life than me - though I admit I have not read your entries much at all these few months. I'm just tired, I'm either busy or playing something to ease off my stress.
Oh yeah, I went to that Zelda Concert in London at the end of October, to me it was ok, probably a little better than average, though to my brother he said it was a disappointment. I think it's really because the venue/concert hall was quite small for an orchestral concert, it's like they weren't able to find a big one, the sound was actually not as impressive as you would hear from a hifi or even on a music CD. Perhaps it's because we sat at the side and not the middle and you couldn't hear the entire surround from the sides? Anyway, they also have these two annoying light things on both sides of the stage but to those that sat at the side of the concert hall you cannot see the screen. (The orchestra cast is clearly seen on stage, but above them there is a screen, my theory is that those light things are what they prodcast on the screen. It's a shame because you get to feel more of the music if you can see the screen.
Had been playing the newest Zelda game on the Wii since November (Though at a really slow pace compared to how I will finish it within a week in the past, they kind of made things longer and the hints they give are bullsh*t)
However I love the shading they've placed into it, plenty of people love how realistic environments are but it gets boring if it's like that all the time, I love the pastel and impressionistic feel this game has this time. Plenty of music and still waiting for the people in ffshrine to rip it (They're totally pros when it comes to video game tracks 8D; )
Errr.... I kind of wrote these one day and now in another day I'm writing this again, I don't remember if I have mentioned what I'm doing for Christmas. Will be singing for choir in Xmas day anyway - hoping to get a ride to church though.
Last week I tried driving there myself, all was well until I found a really long car parking space, got excited and tried parking there - only to realise the brake didn't work when I pressed on it, the car skidded and sort of crashed/slammed into the footpath (luckily) otherwise I'll be crashing into the car in front of me. It was only I stepped out of my car and placed my foot on the road until I realise it's as slippery as you would find in an ice-skating rink. Penguin style walking of not step by stpe bit half step by half step - so fortunate nothing bad happened to me (Saw an ambulance on my way there, heard that a poor old man slipped on the road and banged his head on the ground - oh dear...)
I don't want to take risks, hopefully the lady that will drive me to church won't mind me being early (Well she's ok with it because I need to get ready to sing there, I just didn't exactly confirm with her since she didn't even ask where I live...)
I wanna watch the new Sherlock Holmes movie.... loved the first one they made (I was hesitant at first because the trailer I saw didn't do them much justice) but going to the cinema alone.... very boring.... plus it's xmas.... hmm.....
Had been having strange dreams of being (And possibly owning or my family owning) in a new big house. It only had 2 floors in the first few dreams but then it gets to develop into at least 3 or 4 floors in more recent dreams (One time I even dreamed of being in a mixture of hotels and apartments in Hong Kong but very very strange environment) and the floors were really really high - at least 100+ I think people will die due to lack of oxygen and coldness way high above don't you think?
One time there was even these... stairs and floors on each floor but they had gaps circling the floor, people will definitely die if they accidentally fall off the floor because it's at least 7 floors high (Plaza floor height)
Anyway, this time similar to before, the first floor was really spacious - plenty of sitting rooms (At least 3 or 4), kitchen, garden, bath & shower room in first floor (even bigger than my mother's house), at least 4 or 5 guest rooms in 2nd floor (With sitting room inside them too that I have to question if this was a hotel or not), ridiculously enough 3rd floor had spa, guest kitchen, 2 conference rooms (Well they're like those small classrooms you can find in unviersities but wth!?) - too bad I never got to the 4th floor - so wanna know if there's anymore floors and if our bedrooms are in there or not.
The exterior of the house... is like an old gigantic round... uh... not a castle but something round and grey stone with some ivy on the sides.... it's situated in the fork of car roads, very big and very very strange.
Lol, it's great inspriation for 3D modelling rooms, but I don't think I need such a big house in real life hahaha XD;
Dreams are strange, dream mood just told me I'm having indication of that I'm are entering into a new phase or new area in my life and are becoming more emotionally mature.... (This is based on a new house, they had one for and old house but the house isn't exactly old... old on the outside but new on the inside? Saaa.....
And I'm becoming more emotionally mature... wao? XD; I guess I agree with the new phase thing....
Dreams are inspiring....
Still haven't been watching any anime - though I found a new adorable manga called Gakuen Babysitters! Love how the manga drew the children - they're all so cute!!! You can read it here since they're the most updated: http://www.mangareader.net/1030-39367-2/gakuen-babysitters/chapter-1.html
Fun thing is that each character's names/surnames is somehow related to an animal (You'll only notice this if you can read Kanji/Chinese character)
It tells of a teenager (Ryuichi somehow meaning Dragon one or 1st Dragon) that lost his parents (yes same tragic pattern I know) due to airplane accident, he has nothing left except for his little baby brother, Koutarou (2nd Tiger, both are grand names if you know what I mean) they got adopted by an old lady whom had lost her children as well in that same airplane accident (the old lady seems evil and cruel but in reality she is really nice), she demanded that while she adopts the two of them, Ryuichi will still have to look after a kindergarten club set up in the old lady's highschool (She is a chairman of the highshcool, the kindergarten club basically consists of children from the teachers that teach their and Ruicihi has to look after them as part of her adopted condition)
Compared to Baby and I or Akaa-chan to Boku, the little brother of Gakuen Babysitters is more toleratable and behaves quite well. (In Akaa-chan to Boku I like Takuya more than Minoru anyway, Gakuen Babysitters I like both Ryuuichi and Koutarou! They're both so cute!)
In Katekyo Hitman Reborn I feel so sorry for Tsuna (Could smell the 8027 when Yamamoto offered him to stay at his place so Tsuna doesn't have to face his Dad.... sometimes I really wonder if Nana or Iemitsu pays attention to their son at all...)
Hmm... I can't think of anything at the moment so I'll stop here? Sorry for the long post...
Merry Christmas & Happy New year to all! (If I don't post anymore till next year that is)
I wonder if anyone still reads my LJ anymore... anyway, A LOT has happened since my last entry until now.
In summary points my entry will be as follows:
- Current Situation
- Church & Choir
- Christmas
- Zelda (Orchestra & Game)
- Random to end
In my last entry (Don't even remember if I mentioned or not) my brother is now in London. He got his job and he just moved there on the 3rd December. I don't remember where he works, it's either around liverpool street in London or around Canary Wharf or Canada Water. Currently he is living at a fellow christian brother's house in....uh was it called Surrey? (I probably got the name wrong again)
Anyway it's around the south east of London. He plans to find a place of his own soon around that area (Actually his initial plan was to live in either Stratford or Layton but now he's more familiar with this area he's living in and hopes to find a place around there) - but places in London are expensive! 8D;
He's doing great, he's not sure of his new job yet he's happy. Hopefully he'll find a place of his own soon (And perhaps a potential girlfriend? XD)
Ever since he left I'm not on my own at home (I was quite nervous driving him to the international airport of Belfast, driving is not hard, it's recognising which road leads to where, THAT hard) it was a miracle I was able to drive back on my own that day he left (Well, right now still a miracle that I still drive around the city, lucky not crashing into any car but was very very risky....)
Thing is a night club had opened up on Halloween and it's right beside our apartment (I'm talking about 1 car parked horiztonally that kind of distance) It was quite disastrous on the first week, they had their bass SO loud that someone said you can even hear them across the river. It's enough they had to open until 2.30pm and the feeling of the bass making your heart beat along with it was not pleasant at all. Luccky they calmed down a week after, the only annoying thing were the increase of drunkards yelling or singing around (Even dog barks are better)
I'm sorry but I'm just talking what I can think of the moment.
So brother is away but currently he still pays for the mortgage and stuff over here for me (my benefits can't really pay it off ^^; ) and now I've started my freelance work since 14th Nov.. though I'm getting a funny feeling I'm just using these 6 months to build up a portfolio of something....and apply work again in the future (After all, it's quite hard to do business like this and I have expected the worse scenario anyway, unless I really did manage but at the end of the day I still prefer to work for someone instead)
I still want to at least find work and stay in England (At least for these 10~20 years) perhaps it may not happen at all, it's just like most of my friends are over there and I would at least like to try and live over there.
The only thing that keeps me sane over here oddly enough is the church I go to (And the business centre that supports me, then there are doctors and dentists, people are nice over here [compared to HK and the occasionally 'just-hate-you-without-any-reason' people] but these are its advantages living in Belfast)
Belfast in a way is quite 'home' for me, but I would like to see if England is more 'home' than Belfast. Who knows? maybe in the end it's still Belfast.
Anyway, I've did a revamp of my site: www.kazeworks.com incase you forgot, I've work in there that's not shown in my deviantart and work in DA not in my website. I admit I've been drawing a lot for devel_icious but I'm quite happy to do so.
I've also open myself more to look for potential projects to do on DA or for myself, there's been something I've been doing and hoping to get at least one by 1st january. Recently I find the non-anime styled way of colouring fascinating.
I'm still doing the 3D game with a friend but in a realllly slow pace. My fault.
I still sing for church (BTW the concert DVD is still not out yet because they've had issues with the quality of either the video or the sound.) I just hope it doesn't snow on Xmas day, wouldn't know how to drive there if that happens. Black ice is not fun x_X
Speaking of singing, we sang & recorded for a composer of hymns and I got a copy of her CD. It's Christian hymns of course, but anyone is free to listen to it if they like. I can share it if anyone wants it because the music she composed (And some she didn't compose but she re-used someone else's arrangement) is really beautiful to listen to. (F-locked only though because she sells the CD and me sharing it like that may not be good for her...)
Church is great for me, though there are always people sort of blaming each other and trying to pretty up their intentions in an arguement or supporting each other and/or had quite a lot of misunderstandings - this happens when it's the whole church, I don't get the feeling if you belong to a bible study group (though it pains my heart hearing the ill gossips of other groups on either my group or on other certain groups, I try to ignore it as much as possible) I love my bible group atm, I became familiar with the people and they're all so nice (To me anyway) it's great to know that people are still lovable.
On the other hand I've been questioning a lot to myself on my realtionship with my mother recently. It's not day one that I always complain about her bad points, though strangely she asked me twice on the phone if I actually missed her or not. It's... a rather silly question to ask because there's no way I would say no. My cousin bugged me via facebook telling me to come back to my mom's home for her (not for my mom but for my cuz, I get the feeling she's doing it for my mom because ever since at least 5 years around ago or so she has not once ever asked me to come.)
Perhaps my mother really do miss me but I really can't do much for her. I can't take over your store, perhaps I can clean help you clean your house but between you and me you should at least be able to feel that you go to work at the night, I work in the daytime, whenever we're a 'family' together you'd always invite people from the outside group when it's supposed to be just for a 'family' thing. Then again, if outsiders are not there, we really have nothing to talk about. It's no different talking on a phone.
I do question myself if I have become quite cold-hearted to her (It's painful if you think about it, but if I stay with her physically I will be the one in pain constantly based on my conscious. I really don't like hearing the bad points of who or whomever, why do you judge others so much so? It's painful.)
But because she is still my mother, as much as I don't like this trait of hers, I do feel sorry for her and still love her for the things she did in the past for me, but the problem is the negative side of her covers the good side of her even more (Perhaps I am being a hypocrite myself too)
Oh I am sorry. I hope my flist having a better life than me - though I admit I have not read your entries much at all these few months. I'm just tired, I'm either busy or playing something to ease off my stress.
Oh yeah, I went to that Zelda Concert in London at the end of October, to me it was ok, probably a little better than average, though to my brother he said it was a disappointment. I think it's really because the venue/concert hall was quite small for an orchestral concert, it's like they weren't able to find a big one, the sound was actually not as impressive as you would hear from a hifi or even on a music CD. Perhaps it's because we sat at the side and not the middle and you couldn't hear the entire surround from the sides? Anyway, they also have these two annoying light things on both sides of the stage but to those that sat at the side of the concert hall you cannot see the screen. (The orchestra cast is clearly seen on stage, but above them there is a screen, my theory is that those light things are what they prodcast on the screen. It's a shame because you get to feel more of the music if you can see the screen.
Had been playing the newest Zelda game on the Wii since November (Though at a really slow pace compared to how I will finish it within a week in the past, they kind of made things longer and the hints they give are bullsh*t)
However I love the shading they've placed into it, plenty of people love how realistic environments are but it gets boring if it's like that all the time, I love the pastel and impressionistic feel this game has this time. Plenty of music and still waiting for the people in ffshrine to rip it (They're totally pros when it comes to video game tracks 8D; )
Errr.... I kind of wrote these one day and now in another day I'm writing this again, I don't remember if I have mentioned what I'm doing for Christmas. Will be singing for choir in Xmas day anyway - hoping to get a ride to church though.
Last week I tried driving there myself, all was well until I found a really long car parking space, got excited and tried parking there - only to realise the brake didn't work when I pressed on it, the car skidded and sort of crashed/slammed into the footpath (luckily) otherwise I'll be crashing into the car in front of me. It was only I stepped out of my car and placed my foot on the road until I realise it's as slippery as you would find in an ice-skating rink. Penguin style walking of not step by stpe bit half step by half step - so fortunate nothing bad happened to me (Saw an ambulance on my way there, heard that a poor old man slipped on the road and banged his head on the ground - oh dear...)
I don't want to take risks, hopefully the lady that will drive me to church won't mind me being early (Well she's ok with it because I need to get ready to sing there, I just didn't exactly confirm with her since she didn't even ask where I live...)
I wanna watch the new Sherlock Holmes movie.... loved the first one they made (I was hesitant at first because the trailer I saw didn't do them much justice) but going to the cinema alone.... very boring.... plus it's xmas.... hmm.....
Had been having strange dreams of being (And possibly owning or my family owning) in a new big house. It only had 2 floors in the first few dreams but then it gets to develop into at least 3 or 4 floors in more recent dreams (One time I even dreamed of being in a mixture of hotels and apartments in Hong Kong but very very strange environment) and the floors were really really high - at least 100+ I think people will die due to lack of oxygen and coldness way high above don't you think?
One time there was even these... stairs and floors on each floor but they had gaps circling the floor, people will definitely die if they accidentally fall off the floor because it's at least 7 floors high (Plaza floor height)
Anyway, this time similar to before, the first floor was really spacious - plenty of sitting rooms (At least 3 or 4), kitchen, garden, bath & shower room in first floor (even bigger than my mother's house), at least 4 or 5 guest rooms in 2nd floor (With sitting room inside them too that I have to question if this was a hotel or not), ridiculously enough 3rd floor had spa, guest kitchen, 2 conference rooms (Well they're like those small classrooms you can find in unviersities but wth!?) - too bad I never got to the 4th floor - so wanna know if there's anymore floors and if our bedrooms are in there or not.
The exterior of the house... is like an old gigantic round... uh... not a castle but something round and grey stone with some ivy on the sides.... it's situated in the fork of car roads, very big and very very strange.
Lol, it's great inspriation for 3D modelling rooms, but I don't think I need such a big house in real life hahaha XD;
Dreams are strange, dream mood just told me I'm having indication of that I'm are entering into a new phase or new area in my life and are becoming more emotionally mature.... (This is based on a new house, they had one for and old house but the house isn't exactly old... old on the outside but new on the inside? Saaa.....
And I'm becoming more emotionally mature... wao? XD; I guess I agree with the new phase thing....
Dreams are inspiring....
Still haven't been watching any anime - though I found a new adorable manga called Gakuen Babysitters! Love how the manga drew the children - they're all so cute!!! You can read it here since they're the most updated: http://www.mangareader.net/1030-39367-2/gakuen-babysitters/chapter-1.html
Fun thing is that each character's names/surnames is somehow related to an animal (You'll only notice this if you can read Kanji/Chinese character)
It tells of a teenager (Ryuichi somehow meaning Dragon one or 1st Dragon) that lost his parents (yes same tragic pattern I know) due to airplane accident, he has nothing left except for his little baby brother, Koutarou (2nd Tiger, both are grand names if you know what I mean) they got adopted by an old lady whom had lost her children as well in that same airplane accident (the old lady seems evil and cruel but in reality she is really nice), she demanded that while she adopts the two of them, Ryuichi will still have to look after a kindergarten club set up in the old lady's highschool (She is a chairman of the highshcool, the kindergarten club basically consists of children from the teachers that teach their and Ruicihi has to look after them as part of her adopted condition)
Compared to Baby and I or Akaa-chan to Boku, the little brother of Gakuen Babysitters is more toleratable and behaves quite well. (In Akaa-chan to Boku I like Takuya more than Minoru anyway, Gakuen Babysitters I like both Ryuuichi and Koutarou! They're both so cute!)
In Katekyo Hitman Reborn I feel so sorry for Tsuna (Could smell the 8027 when Yamamoto offered him to stay at his place so Tsuna doesn't have to face his Dad.... sometimes I really wonder if Nana or Iemitsu pays attention to their son at all...)
Hmm... I can't think of anything at the moment so I'll stop here? Sorry for the long post...
Merry Christmas & Happy New year to all! (If I don't post anymore till next year that is)