phucked up fantasy
this is sex fantasy, don't click if you don't want to read it, or if you're under 18, because people under 18 don't have sex. and yhea, it's fucked up and sick shit, so if you're not into that, then don't click it either.
wrapping my legs around yours, I've curled myself into the smallest possible ball. I'm trying to choke myself on your cock. I like pretending I'm a little boy again, being violated by you. Perhaps, I could envision a younger version of myself, a freddy higmore lookalike, wrapped around you like this.
I want to have sex like I did when I was a kid. none of this prentensious bullshit and roles, just having fun.
When did I get so fucked up? was it the coming out? I think it was. It was the gateway. When I could admit to myself that I was gay, when I had to work that through in my head, and then I survived... it was like the kids who tried pot and didn't go blind or turn into monsters. All of a sudden they realized they'd been lied to, and now they had to try everything. Except that was external. this is inside of me. "What sick shit", yhea, probibly, but how I longed when I was a boy to be used like my sister was. It didn't happen. I was never that pretty, or that social. So now I want to be that boy again, and to work through it. I think, I don't know. I do want to be a boy, but I'm not 100% sure why. I want to be young and to be taken care of, and to be able to shine, and to have someone lust over me and tell me what to do.
I don't know.
wrapping my legs around yours, I've curled myself into the smallest possible ball. I'm trying to choke myself on your cock. I like pretending I'm a little boy again, being violated by you. Perhaps, I could envision a younger version of myself, a freddy higmore lookalike, wrapped around you like this.
I want to have sex like I did when I was a kid. none of this prentensious bullshit and roles, just having fun.
When did I get so fucked up? was it the coming out? I think it was. It was the gateway. When I could admit to myself that I was gay, when I had to work that through in my head, and then I survived... it was like the kids who tried pot and didn't go blind or turn into monsters. All of a sudden they realized they'd been lied to, and now they had to try everything. Except that was external. this is inside of me. "What sick shit", yhea, probibly, but how I longed when I was a boy to be used like my sister was. It didn't happen. I was never that pretty, or that social. So now I want to be that boy again, and to work through it. I think, I don't know. I do want to be a boy, but I'm not 100% sure why. I want to be young and to be taken care of, and to be able to shine, and to have someone lust over me and tell me what to do.
I don't know.