Aiming for that first time
yhea, more sex stuff. Had that on the brain reciently.
Do you remember your first orgasam? how old were you? 8? 9? 10? 11? I think I was about 10. I remember I didn't have anything growing down there yet. I used to let the faucet run over me, in the bathtub. I remembered describing the sensation to my friend as it "tickling too much" but it was neet. Anyway, one day I was doing this, and then it happened. I couldn't see any more, and my body was absolutely wracked with spasms beyond my control or comprehension. I almost drowned in the bathtub because I couldnt get control over myself. Afterwards, it took me a full night to recover. I was shaking when I got out, and my mom was convinced I was sick.
Since then, those first couple times were the same, but it's lost alot of that. I've talked to people who were that way with drugs, but I've never had that issue. every time I've tripped it's been different, but it's certainly not lost any intensity.
Masterbation is an issue for me. I know I do it too much. Way too much, and I don't doubt that's a big part of why I'm not as sensitive any more, but I don't think it's the whole reason either. I think alot of it has to do with that special blend of hormones and a body that's not acustomed to them yet that only exists for such a short time in the prepubescent boy, and I don't think that can ever be recaptured. maybe there's some drug coctail that could do it, but I'm certainly not willing to go to those distances. Perhaps I'll give a shot at going a week without stimulation and see how that goes.
I think that's part of my fascination. I dunno.
Do you remember your first orgasam? how old were you? 8? 9? 10? 11? I think I was about 10. I remember I didn't have anything growing down there yet. I used to let the faucet run over me, in the bathtub. I remembered describing the sensation to my friend as it "tickling too much" but it was neet. Anyway, one day I was doing this, and then it happened. I couldn't see any more, and my body was absolutely wracked with spasms beyond my control or comprehension. I almost drowned in the bathtub because I couldnt get control over myself. Afterwards, it took me a full night to recover. I was shaking when I got out, and my mom was convinced I was sick.
Since then, those first couple times were the same, but it's lost alot of that. I've talked to people who were that way with drugs, but I've never had that issue. every time I've tripped it's been different, but it's certainly not lost any intensity.
Masterbation is an issue for me. I know I do it too much. Way too much, and I don't doubt that's a big part of why I'm not as sensitive any more, but I don't think it's the whole reason either. I think alot of it has to do with that special blend of hormones and a body that's not acustomed to them yet that only exists for such a short time in the prepubescent boy, and I don't think that can ever be recaptured. maybe there's some drug coctail that could do it, but I'm certainly not willing to go to those distances. Perhaps I'll give a shot at going a week without stimulation and see how that goes.
I think that's part of my fascination. I dunno.