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[ "Hey, Angeal?"
"Hmmm?"
"How come you take apples from all the other trees , but you never stole any from the best one?"
"What kind of friend steals from his friend?"
"Ohhhh.....honor again." his best friend smiled mockingly. "You could ask."
"I don't ask for things, Genesis, I earn." the other boy replied solemnly.
Exasperated, the light haired boy threw up his hands. Walking away he called over his shoulder. "You sure are stupid sometimes."
"Hey!" the dark haired youth protested. "There is nothing stupid about pride."
Moments later Genesis returned slapping an deep blue apple into the boy's hand. Angeal blinked in surprise. Even spoiled, rich Genesis had his moments.
"......so are you still going to join SOLDIER?" he asked awkwardly.
"Yes - aren't you?"
"I guess." sighing, Angeal took a bite out the apple.
"Oh admit it." Genesis murmured. "You want to be a hero every bit as bad. You're always going on about it - honor, loyalty, pride - the whole lot."
"I have to go to make sure that you make it out there."
"What?"
Smirking the raven haired boy replied. "I have to make sure you succeed. You've been pampered all your life. They'll eat you alive."
"Don't patronize me, Angeal." the other boy's eyes narrowed resentfully.
"Oh lighten up. I was joking."
"I will be a hero." his friend said with conviction. "I'll even surpass the great Sephiroth, you'll all see. That's my dream. And I'll make it true."
"It's a good dream." Angeal answered. "To be a hero, you have to have dreams - and ..."
"Yes, yes..." Genesis said impatiently. " 'Don't ever forget your honor.' I pity if you ever become a platoon leader - those poor recruits that will have to listen to you over and over."
"What's that supposed to mean?!"]
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Why do I keep having that dream? Even here in this place. If we are truly monsters than our dreams are supposed to be done forever. And yet....all this experience has made me want, is to end the suffering in this world. Not just mine and Genesis's - everything that causes suffering should be our enemy. For me at least, that's what it means to be SOLDIER.
SOLDIER is where it began for me. It's all I have left of my pride. Besides, I can't risk living among civilians when I am like this. Who knows if I will snap like Genesis? It's safer for me and for them if I stay in SOLDIER where Sephiroth at least, is capable of stopping me. But something is different about him too. I don't know what, but it's bothering me. I feel like there is something he is not telling me. He never was very open...but I keep picking up this coldness that wasn't there before.
Zack is here too and I know I'll to face him eventually. Part of me does want to see him again very badly. But I just don't know what to say to him after what happened. What can I say to him?