MY RENTS KNOW IM GAY KNOW AND ARE GIVING ME HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im like a fucking cancer why do i make people feel soo bad im just so horrible i dont deserve to care for anyone, I DONT!! Ryan hates me, wharwood JUST stopped hating me Jacob hates me and god knows who else hates me why do i make everyone soooo fucking miserable

I always use my xanga because someone else actually reads/cares what i feel or have to say at in my life. Things seem to be getting shittier and shittier, cept for Eddie hes soo awesome i cant afford to hurt him

TELL ME IT GETS BETTER THAN THIS PLEASE???

so yea me wants a bf i kno jacob wants to be but i dont feel for him that way it hurts to tell him that but he is an awesome friend to have. i dont know what im looking for in a bf but its one of those things where i'll kno when it comes

im such an ass hole i cant believe myself but it had to be done