The only time I feel useful, productive and somewhat talented is when I'm either cooking, tidying and organizing, or blowing some hot guy's mind with my sex skills.

Dear god I'm basically housewife material. :-(

Does it make sense that I'm horny to the point of being restless and frustrated and just desperately wanting to get it out of my system but not being able to find anyone attractive? I mean no one. Online or in real life. Before a nice looking guy that I happen to notice might casually catch my attention at the very least. Ya know, a nice bit of eye ( Read more... )

I wish I could kiss him, make him all better and make him forget her....

Your results are in! thenahga, you are...

Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master (RBSM)


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I hate being inside my head. The cruelest irony that can happen to an introvert is to not be able to stand being in their own mind, afraid and uncomfortable in their thoughts. The social outlets that the majority of people use to escape and take comfort in are of little use to me. I find the social niceties and small talk draining. Feeling obliged ( Read more... )

After several games of Katamari Demacy I'm laying in bed anxious and frustrated out of my mind. I have the window open for the first time since mid June and the breeze feels great on my skin which is actually adding to my frustration in a way. *shrug*

I'm wearing my black satin slip with lace trim that I bought to wear under my black satin dress ( Read more... )

I know that I'm starting a downward spiral towards one of my episodes of depression when the morbid and sensual start to melt together ( Read more... )

I think I will never be able to be loved for who I am because I'm just too defective eand broken beyond repair.  A lot of good a year's worth of therapy did for me.....blah ( Read more... )

So I finally broke down met up with my lover S this past Friday. I was both ecstatically looking forward to it and dreading it. Unfortunately almost everything went wrong. He ended up arriving at 9:30pm instead of 7pm so less time together for starters. We walked up some ways and then took a cab to a diner where we had dinner then want back to ( Read more... )

I should be looking forward to seeing my lover S tonight but he cancelled on me on Wednesday. I have been very moody and pissy for the past month and feeling extremly introverted. He was the one person I was looking forward to seeing, the one event I was excited about. Perhaps it's for the best since I was suppose to have cut him off until he was ( Read more... )