bitching

[winniethepounce]

my life currently consists of three things: working, drinking a lot of alcohol and mood swings. I am thoroughly sick of all three. one of the most irritating factors in my life is that I can't seem to do anything with anyone without having to get drunk first. all anyone ever wants to do anymore is get drunk. well I don't have the money or the

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[brighten]

I understand all of this completely. I know I used to take advantage of Erin in that way because she had a car and I didn't. I'd just repay her sometimes with food, but that doesn't pay the bills. You should say something to them, but nicely. If they're true friends, they'll understand. It's logic and it's fair. No, money isn't everything, but if it's a matter of you eating and having a place to live, they'll back off. When I lived with Erin and Jonna, I often felt like my room wasn't even mine, so it wasn't like I was aching to go hide there, or that I could truly hide because if I locked the door someone could still bang on it to be let in; if I hid under my covers I could still hear people in the house through the paper-thin walls. I hope you can find a comfortable space to just be when that's all you need.

[winniethepounce]

thank you, claire. I really do appreciate you taking in my negative thoughts and producing helpful and thoughtful responses. I will talk to my friends, I just don't know what to say. I tend to get all steamed about these things and just act out in an unfriendly way in the moment, and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm just feeling overwhelmed, to say the least. I want to crawl under a rock for a while.