Okay, I'm going to make a conscious effort to snap out of my funk. Starting....now!

I just want to feel like a good person.

I don't know if I should....I mean, it'd be interesting, but...I just don't know. 
I have no idea where to go otherwise.
Shouldn't I add options, not take them away?
I just don't know if it's worthwhile or not, or if anyone would even support it.
They'd probably look at me like I'm grabbing at straws...which I kinda am, but I don't care.
Well, yes, I do ( Read more... )

Tonight we had John Leguizamo in the store to sign his new book:
"Pimps, Hos and Playa Haters".

Maggie and I took a picture with him, and Jaymes will e-mail it to me soon.
It looked so cute, I'm excited!
If I can figure out how, I might post it.

I also did something important tonight, but I can't post because she might see it. 
I doubt she would, but ( Read more... )

It's 7:15 in the morning, I just scheduled my classes for the winter and spring, and now I don't have to be at work until 12. I have to go do applications, don't I? But I have good music playing, and I have to shower and eat breakfast...yeah, this might not be so bad.

So I was reading a friend's journal (I think she'll know I'm talking about her, but I don't know how to post the user name. I'm a failure with technology yet again. But proudly.), and she was talking about how she could get lost in a book, then let that same theme or strong emotion carry over to her life. Sometimes I do the same thing, and it's ( Read more... )

Now that I have your attention ( Read more... )

I really do hate the way things are right now. 
I'm doubting something that's always been such a big part of my life, and I don't like that.

I want to take a break from all this.
I just feel...hopeless. 
I don't know how I'm going to get all of this done. 
I thought I had a plan, but now I just don't know.

And damn it, why do I attract the clingy boys?
I ( Read more... )

I was going to be strong. Really, I was. But I couldn't help it.

This 40% off weekend is not good for me. I bought two more books. But with my holiday savings fund and discount, I only paid $5.60 for two books worth about $35 put together. I love that.

But then Mom and I went to Old Navy and I bought a bag. Now I literally don't have a dollar to my ( Read more... )

Alright, so yesterday sucked. Obviously. But there is reason behind it. I feel so overwhelmed and at a loss for control in my life. Everytime I think about what's going on, my chest feels tight and I honestly feel sick to my stomach. But I'm trying not to dwell on that.

I was pretty excited to go to work today. We had Martha Stewart in to sigh her ( Read more... )