don't tell san francisco

[winter_patience]

but oaklahoma whispered something in my ear. it said that colorodo has a drug problem. and maryland hates land locked states. and that canada, well, it would cover the u.s. like blanket if it could, it really wants to

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[tangerinedream3]

I don't have any insightful advice or grains of knowledge, but i wanted to let you know that i read everything, and that i have known people... a person, who hurt people... me, emotionally, a lot, in a relationship, and though i don't know all your details i can say for certain that you are not like those people... that person.

[winter_patience]

thank you. sometimes that's all i need to hear. i think there is a vast open field in my brain, with myself in it, waving towards my other half to come and join me. but the other half doesn't want to, it feels like it can't. it knows there's something better on the other side, but it doesn't know any of it, it would all be new to him. i don't know. it's just really hard for me to forgive myself, and realize it really was just a mistake. i have to realize it, and never do it again, but also tell myself that i'm better than it. that it was a character flaw that i have now fixed and won't have to deal with ever again. and that i believe in the good qualities in myself and that i am a good person for what i'm doing now, in response to what i did. haha wow, you're statement of hope and reassertion produced this entire thing! it's almost like a post. thanks!