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winterdalejeff

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Oct 26, 2009 19:34

im tired of dealing with parents who fuck up on having kids before they actually know themselves ( Read more... )

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the_mollusk October 27 2009, 23:34:47 UTC

your situation makes me uncomfortable, yes

winterdalejeff October 28 2009, 01:25:25 UTC

hey johnny, did something click in your head that went 'start being a dick to jeff' cause im interpreting my feelings in reaction to the communications we've had as that you are not tolerating/interacting with what you usually have in me...maybe its this tough time for you, or my recent descent back into valley land, whatever it is, i dont feel very regarded as your valued friend...that feeling in me doesnt feel good

i hope you know im trying to write this as to not project my feelings onto you, i own my feelings, you dont make me feel them, but you are my friend and i just want to tell you that "we (for me)" dont feel good...if you're done believing in me, we had a good run. i dont wanna be part of everyone else to you, im on your team, whats goin on dude? or am i making this up?

the_mollusk October 28 2009, 12:02:39 UTC

it's not like that at all, my dear friend. i wanna see you happy is all, and i think that your situation in LA literally makes me uncomfortable because it just seems like its sort of throwing you backwards from the progress you were making while living in san francisco. and obviously, you know better than i do, but even the fact that you would react so defensively suggests to me that your own bearings on your situation aren't solid. you appear to be sort of confused and unsure of what you need to be happy, and im just being the catalyst you may or may not need (and whether it's appropriate or not is up to debate, i just seem to fall into this role with you for some reason) to take some more risks that you may not feel supported in doing otherwise. so contrarily, i only mean to encourage you to be happier, and have not by any means 'given up' on you, nor do i see that as a possibility in "our" near future. and for the record, i do feel like your insecurities did play a huge role in your interpretation of my actions lately, although i ( ... )

winterdalejeff October 29 2009, 21:24:46 UTC

rest assured then my friend, while our limited communication avails otherwise, i am doing the work youd have me do, i am and have been deconstructing the process of everything, my own habits, the origin of our understanding of value/comfort/truth, my relationships, your relationships...even deconstructing the desire to deconstruct everything ( ... )