im so depressed, i feel like i dont have any friends anymore, no one calls me or invites me places or anything. all i do is work and stay home and watch my everday line up of tv shows.

fucken lame

just got home from the morgue

im not going to go in to details, but i will say

dont drink & drive

p.s

i still have the smell of death on my clothes.

in the shower!

biches call me tonite!!!

Is love so fragile ( Read more... )

is there something wrong with my communication skills? i always felt that i ive obtain strong communications skills, im verbal, forward, aggressive and extremely honest; theres nothing i hold back when im trying to make a person understand how i feel. But why dose this heavy weight of anxeity come over me when i try to explain to him how i feel. ( Read more... )

i feel so lonely

i mean theres tons of people i know i can call right now and hang out and waste time with, but i dont want to do that, i just want to under my harry potter comforters with him, watching tv and smoking. i miss him alot, im not used to not seeing him everyday.

whatever. ill just be home.

being in love is probably the best and worst thing that ever happened to me. when i met him, i remember sincerly thinking, woah this guy is so funny and he loves to everything that i love to do... but what else dose a 19yr old like to do but fuck and get drunk. i never thought id fall in love with him, that wasnt me, i knew guys were bad news, they ( Read more... )

im so bored with life.

so im 22 now, as of today

i remember all i was waiting for was turn to 21 and now i have 23 to look forward to? yah right!

anyways, call me if you wanna go out to eat for my birthday :D

alex

P.s

i love brandon, he got me awessssssssome gifts! thanks babeh

So turn 22 on tuesday. bah, im not that depressed about it, im doing alot better then alot of people my age. but anyways thats besides the point

im having a little dinner party for my birthday.

im almost sure it will be at :

SUSHIROKU

It's located on W. 3rd Street. (by the beverly center)
if not there probably:

kabuki thats located on ( Read more... )

i miss my lover with so much intensity. i drove to costa mesa to see his face for 10 mintues. <3

an i didnt even get a good kiss.