Twilight - Humpty Dumpty
Happy Eclipse day, or something.
Title: Humpty Dumpty
Fandom: Twilight
Rating: G
Characters/Pairings: Jacob/Bella/Edward
Word Count: 439
Note: For 15_minute_fic's Word #26. Title comes from this Travis song. Also, anythingbutgrey, I hate you. ♥
The note plays over and over in her mind. After the ten thousandth reading, she has memorized it. Not just those two lines, or the way he writes her name in that imperfect scrawl of his. She knows the cross-outs just as well, and even better, like the back of her hand. Can’t have it both ways. Mortal enemies. Just no way around.
When I think about you too much.
There is no way she can deny that he is right. The scope is so much larger than she can ever grasp. This isn’t, and will never be, just a school-ground brawl. It won’t just be over when the tardy bell rings. This fight will not end with bruises and cuts and being sent to the principal’s office after the nurse’s.
This is eternal.
She is stubborn enough to keep writing, day after day. Charlie and Billy and all those middlemen are sick of being delivery boys after the second note. Or maybe the third, if they are feeling nice that day.
“Why don’t you just talk to him, Bella? Just go down to La Push!”
She wants to tell him that, no, she can’t just take a pleasure drive down to the reservation. She can’t just waltz in there, apologize, and expect to be forgiven. She can’t just walk up to her former werewolf best friend and his pack and tell him that she misses him but no, sorry, she can’t leave her vampire boyfriend. It’s not that easy.
Nothing is that easy.
She thinks, no, she knows, Edward realizes. It may take him a while to recognize what Bella thinks, but given time, he does. She sees the anger and the annoyance and - she hopes she’s wrong, but she rarely is - the murderous instinct in his eyes, and that’s when she knows he knows.
There is a time when she would feel guilty. She suspects she may be in too deep when she finds herself convincing Edward of her love for him. Why is she doing that? There shouldn’t be any reason for her to feel as if she needs to do that. She never finds herself having to convince Jacob of her loyalty to him, ever.
Until now.
She won’t leave Edward, that much she knows. She tells herself that she will never leave Jacob, either, nevermind the fact that he is the only who’s abandoned her. It isn’t his fault, she understands, but her logic will never be able to persuade her emotions into thinking so. Surprisingly, there is one thing her mind and heart both comprehend.
Doesn’t change anything. Sorry.
Only her soul doesn’t.
Title: Humpty Dumpty
Fandom: Twilight
Rating: G
Characters/Pairings: Jacob/Bella/Edward
Word Count: 439
Note: For 15_minute_fic's Word #26. Title comes from this Travis song. Also, anythingbutgrey, I hate you. ♥
The note plays over and over in her mind. After the ten thousandth reading, she has memorized it. Not just those two lines, or the way he writes her name in that imperfect scrawl of his. She knows the cross-outs just as well, and even better, like the back of her hand. Can’t have it both ways. Mortal enemies. Just no way around.
When I think about you too much.
There is no way she can deny that he is right. The scope is so much larger than she can ever grasp. This isn’t, and will never be, just a school-ground brawl. It won’t just be over when the tardy bell rings. This fight will not end with bruises and cuts and being sent to the principal’s office after the nurse’s.
This is eternal.
She is stubborn enough to keep writing, day after day. Charlie and Billy and all those middlemen are sick of being delivery boys after the second note. Or maybe the third, if they are feeling nice that day.
“Why don’t you just talk to him, Bella? Just go down to La Push!”
She wants to tell him that, no, she can’t just take a pleasure drive down to the reservation. She can’t just waltz in there, apologize, and expect to be forgiven. She can’t just walk up to her former werewolf best friend and his pack and tell him that she misses him but no, sorry, she can’t leave her vampire boyfriend. It’s not that easy.
Nothing is that easy.
She thinks, no, she knows, Edward realizes. It may take him a while to recognize what Bella thinks, but given time, he does. She sees the anger and the annoyance and - she hopes she’s wrong, but she rarely is - the murderous instinct in his eyes, and that’s when she knows he knows.
There is a time when she would feel guilty. She suspects she may be in too deep when she finds herself convincing Edward of her love for him. Why is she doing that? There shouldn’t be any reason for her to feel as if she needs to do that. She never finds herself having to convince Jacob of her loyalty to him, ever.
Until now.
She won’t leave Edward, that much she knows. She tells herself that she will never leave Jacob, either, nevermind the fact that he is the only who’s abandoned her. It isn’t his fault, she understands, but her logic will never be able to persuade her emotions into thinking so. Surprisingly, there is one thing her mind and heart both comprehend.
Doesn’t change anything. Sorry.
Only her soul doesn’t.