2006; that new year
i've had these concepts and ideas floating around my head about what this new year means...
it's now 10 days past that 1st day of the year so those ideas that seemed more passionate in the last days of 2005 are getting pushed aside, swirled around, and neglected... but it's the new year, we've got stuff going on, or something.
in january 2005 i was pondering my relationship, and wondering how things might go if i asked my Holly to move in with me. so i was not thinking much about opportunities for the new year. so we talked. and she moved in to my house in may.
...in march 2005, employee #3 (and we only have 3) was fired, largely based on his internet slacking time. so things got busy, i got a little more paranoid and pretty much stopped internetting at the office. it took about 6 weeks to find a new hire, so it was very busy anyhow...
things got cozy real quick... i had my holly every night and my social needs dropped quick. i stopped going out, talking to most friends, in real life or the web... i was content. holly still went out a couple/few times a week while i stayed at home playing games, researching business ideas, and floundering around the house... there wasn't much tv or movies in there so i'm a little sad by what i have to show for 2005... but it was an adjustment year, a buffer year... i really gave myself permission to check out on certain things... so, where did i gain personally? with my interest in creating my own web-design/hosting company i learned quiet a bit about CSS and "web standards"... i jumped by leaps and bounds with my ColdFusion coding ability. ..I compiled a decent list of web development resources at del.icio.us. ... and i learned all sorts of stuff about the current trends in Web 2.0 software and the people and hype that go along with it... So despite the fact that I haven't produced anything to make money, yet, I've got a good idea of what's out there, what works and does not. ...with all this web "research", I let my interest in developing musical skills go to the way-side... and then around halloween i remembered as i always do...."i have a great job, it pays well, i've got freedom, it's good people"... so, with that accepted, i just let it all hang down which translates to hours and days spent playing civilization 4... then the christmas season came... and it was busy, at work and in life... and now, what was the subject? RIGHT.. New Year.
So, those holiday distractions are gone. It's the new year. And maybe I haven't been kicking ass so far, cuz, as usual, I have too many things I want to do... and none that need to get done. well, not according to the cory of whatever lazy moment he's in at the time. but cory from 2020 would be cracking a whip right now... cory from 2020 plans to be sailing around the world for a couple months in a row, not sitting at a desk.
so... 2006:
personal: exercise for that energy /// meditate to regulate that breathing/stress/focus /// and those two should naturally waterfall to: drinking less and being healthier in general
bernardwatch: get tons of content up. add community features. get the back-end more solid. just add lots of features. with pj here and part-time employee to be hired soon, i should really get to dive into some fun/interesting projects. ... and harness my skills on taking kick-ass product photography.
arts: get back into my photography. when i let rylie borrow my nikon 995 back in 2003, i was already losing interest in taking pictures. then, the bitch let her stripper-crack head roommate steal and pawn it. thanks for the $100 in payment rylie; you're still $450 off from being even... but then i got a new nikon 4500 and i never got used to its minor differences. so, i've been doing that. that 995 felt like a part of me, i gotta get that back.
arts (more): music: learn that guitar, or keyboard. biatch. practice! i listen to so much music... i hear the drums beating mildly, the bass riff grooving along... that synth layering into that mellow backdrop... and then the guitar comes in, and i hear him jumping around just a couple of chords... and i know i can do each of those things. i could piece that music together. it all seems so simple in my head. i have a dedicated digital 8-track recorder. and how much has been recorded? come on cory, you suck. do something. push through, pop that cherry! the mountain goats guy started recording with a boombox for christ's sake... course, he's a genius of sorts.
and stuff for the house: new floors, bathroom updates, fix electricity issues... and get into more landscaping when that time comes.
and travel: i could stay for free in: Miami, Denver, some island off South Carolina, Atlanta, Panama, and on a 28-foot boot in the Caribbean.
and my webdev: i've got a shiney new dedicated server with more space, bandwidth, and power than i know what to do with... i've canceled a few bills like DishNetwork (satellite tv), the wine of the month club, the Vonage digital phone I never used, and a few other things to compensate for the cost of the thing. i need to get some business on that machine quick to help off-set the cost more. ... need space for some net stuff? lemme know. ... so i have a few ideas here, but i've gotten off course the past few months and need to figure out where to focus.
and of course, my friends: it seems the longer you go without talking to someone, the easier it is to continue that trend. ..especially with the mood i was in much of 2005. ... new energy, renewed passions... that should make me more interesting. beyond the fact that i'm 99% deaf in my right ear, many social situations leave me a bit bored and lost... maybe it's that essential 30% of the conversation i missed... or the fact that i have to strain and struggle to hear a conversation i don't really care much about anyhow... but i was just largely... apathetic.
2006. let's get this party going.
it's now 10 days past that 1st day of the year so those ideas that seemed more passionate in the last days of 2005 are getting pushed aside, swirled around, and neglected... but it's the new year, we've got stuff going on, or something.
in january 2005 i was pondering my relationship, and wondering how things might go if i asked my Holly to move in with me. so i was not thinking much about opportunities for the new year. so we talked. and she moved in to my house in may.
...in march 2005, employee #3 (and we only have 3) was fired, largely based on his internet slacking time. so things got busy, i got a little more paranoid and pretty much stopped internetting at the office. it took about 6 weeks to find a new hire, so it was very busy anyhow...
things got cozy real quick... i had my holly every night and my social needs dropped quick. i stopped going out, talking to most friends, in real life or the web... i was content. holly still went out a couple/few times a week while i stayed at home playing games, researching business ideas, and floundering around the house... there wasn't much tv or movies in there so i'm a little sad by what i have to show for 2005... but it was an adjustment year, a buffer year... i really gave myself permission to check out on certain things... so, where did i gain personally? with my interest in creating my own web-design/hosting company i learned quiet a bit about CSS and "web standards"... i jumped by leaps and bounds with my ColdFusion coding ability. ..I compiled a decent list of web development resources at del.icio.us. ... and i learned all sorts of stuff about the current trends in Web 2.0 software and the people and hype that go along with it... So despite the fact that I haven't produced anything to make money, yet, I've got a good idea of what's out there, what works and does not. ...with all this web "research", I let my interest in developing musical skills go to the way-side... and then around halloween i remembered as i always do...."i have a great job, it pays well, i've got freedom, it's good people"... so, with that accepted, i just let it all hang down which translates to hours and days spent playing civilization 4... then the christmas season came... and it was busy, at work and in life... and now, what was the subject? RIGHT.. New Year.
So, those holiday distractions are gone. It's the new year. And maybe I haven't been kicking ass so far, cuz, as usual, I have too many things I want to do... and none that need to get done. well, not according to the cory of whatever lazy moment he's in at the time. but cory from 2020 would be cracking a whip right now... cory from 2020 plans to be sailing around the world for a couple months in a row, not sitting at a desk.
so... 2006:
personal: exercise for that energy /// meditate to regulate that breathing/stress/focus /// and those two should naturally waterfall to: drinking less and being healthier in general
bernardwatch: get tons of content up. add community features. get the back-end more solid. just add lots of features. with pj here and part-time employee to be hired soon, i should really get to dive into some fun/interesting projects. ... and harness my skills on taking kick-ass product photography.
arts: get back into my photography. when i let rylie borrow my nikon 995 back in 2003, i was already losing interest in taking pictures. then, the bitch let her stripper-crack head roommate steal and pawn it. thanks for the $100 in payment rylie; you're still $450 off from being even... but then i got a new nikon 4500 and i never got used to its minor differences. so, i've been doing that. that 995 felt like a part of me, i gotta get that back.
arts (more): music: learn that guitar, or keyboard. biatch. practice! i listen to so much music... i hear the drums beating mildly, the bass riff grooving along... that synth layering into that mellow backdrop... and then the guitar comes in, and i hear him jumping around just a couple of chords... and i know i can do each of those things. i could piece that music together. it all seems so simple in my head. i have a dedicated digital 8-track recorder. and how much has been recorded? come on cory, you suck. do something. push through, pop that cherry! the mountain goats guy started recording with a boombox for christ's sake... course, he's a genius of sorts.
and stuff for the house: new floors, bathroom updates, fix electricity issues... and get into more landscaping when that time comes.
and travel: i could stay for free in: Miami, Denver, some island off South Carolina, Atlanta, Panama, and on a 28-foot boot in the Caribbean.
and my webdev: i've got a shiney new dedicated server with more space, bandwidth, and power than i know what to do with... i've canceled a few bills like DishNetwork (satellite tv), the wine of the month club, the Vonage digital phone I never used, and a few other things to compensate for the cost of the thing. i need to get some business on that machine quick to help off-set the cost more. ... need space for some net stuff? lemme know. ... so i have a few ideas here, but i've gotten off course the past few months and need to figure out where to focus.
and of course, my friends: it seems the longer you go without talking to someone, the easier it is to continue that trend. ..especially with the mood i was in much of 2005. ... new energy, renewed passions... that should make me more interesting. beyond the fact that i'm 99% deaf in my right ear, many social situations leave me a bit bored and lost... maybe it's that essential 30% of the conversation i missed... or the fact that i have to strain and struggle to hear a conversation i don't really care much about anyhow... but i was just largely... apathetic.
2006. let's get this party going.