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[wiselikegandalf]

I miss being [really] young. I know I'm only 17, but my whole life I've just wanted to grow up and now all of this sudden I feel like my life is passing me by. I want to be 16 again and stay that way forever. I miss being silly and laughing about things other than sarcasm and other people's expense. I miss laying in the grass listening to music all

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[push_itrealgood]

It gets better from here I promise!
If not you can laugh at me for being dumb!

[wiselikegandalf]

Thankyou Ariel. I know you're right, things will probably get better, It's just hard to believe at this point! <3

Sixteen & Savage

[face_the__music]

Sometimes, at no fault of our own, we share brainwaves.
Your livejournal picture takes me to where we used to be--and there my mind stays.

Re: Sixteen & Savage

[wiselikegandalf]

I'd have it no other way my sweet

[citizenwho]

As depressing as it sounds, you get used to it.

It's not all stress, necessarily. It's just...you feel obligated to be responsible.

Those that don't end up at Palomar. Cheer up, kid. Things aren't the same as before, but they ain't bad, either. Give it a few months and you'll be wishing you were still at this point.

[wiselikegandalf]

Thanks Erik. I hope to see you soon. maybe at a guitar hero and pool party.

[mkumar]

college applications are stressful and horrible, the madrigal dinner and mrs. gray make you ask "what the fuck am i doing?", and missing not having to worry what the hell you are going to do with the rest of your life makes a lot of things about december of senior year suck, and suck a lot. but as someone who lamented last year as you are doing now, i can tell you that it does get better. not because you get used to feeling bummed out about the future, or because one day you wake up and things are magically like they were before, but instead because you realize at some point that, despite all the shit you have to deal with, for better or for worse, you are already close to 95% of the people you will ever really love, and that makes everything ok. i hope i can say without sounding patronizing that i trust you'll soon get out of this funk and remember all of the people that you are crazy about and enjoy your last few months of high school. before you know it, gradnight will be long since past and you are in some crazy place in a weird

[wiselikegandalf]

Thankyou so much Kumar, it means a lot to me that you would give me such a heartfelt response. because I really have been having a hard time keeping my head up. Its really nice to hear from someone who has experienced such feelings and lived through it, because sometimes I dont think I will. so I really do feel a lot better now, plus Madrigal Dinner tonight wasnt actually that bad, Sitting at the head table makes all the difference. hopefully friday and saturday will go well too. you always make me feel better, come home sooner than later. Jax and I miss you so much during choir events :( it's just not the same. ( especially me, because I'm not a REAL choir nerd, and therefore have no friends at some points when it gets super intense :/ ) Florida is dank I guess, but it wont be even close to nearly as glorious as seeing SF with you, and "OHH GROSS" etc. AND you look much better as a scottish guy from medeival times than ryan.. don't tell him I said so!! I miss you guys so much and cant wait to BEAT the yukon one more time :)

[wiselikegandalf]

PS. I'm so thankful and happy that I met OH SIX, you and all the rest really changed my life (for the SO much better) dont get me wrong, soixante neuf and the nuts are loyal and miraculous, i love and adore them with all my heart. but some extra support and some themed parties could really come in handy during times like these.

[botswana__dance]

I know but this is just a freaky and weird transitional stage in your life. I'm coming home to you agian in a few days!

[wiselikegandalf]

I'm trying to tell myself that! <3