At least you didn't have to watch your crush and his new girlfriend stroll down the hall acting all lovey-dovey. (I think that helped me get over him, though. So there's always a silver lining to every gray, rain-sodden cloud!)
If you were somebody else, you'd have to worry about other stuff... except instead of YGO purchases, you might have to worry about drug money, or other stuff equally severe. I know this sounds cheesy but try to find positives aspects in everything negative. It'll make you happy, and will actually reduce stress.
I know, I know. *is distinctly disgruntled at having been told this for the umpteen-zillionth time* But still. When you spend three years straight as a hopeless antisocial with zero people skills, you fall into that big, scary, emotional black hole alarmingly often--you know, the one where you temporarily stop caring about anything at all and wish you'd just wake up one morning to find you'd never been born? Well, I felt like that today, for quite a bit longer than I usually do (the longest before this was about ten minutes, thankfully, but today it was almost all through the school day; Mr. Mack saved me with his comedy act. Nobody but nobody can make an Economics class as funny as he does). This feeling usually hits me while I'm in bed, staring at the ceiling with nothing at all to distract me from my troubled thoughts. As a result I've been somewhat sleep-deprived over the past few weeks (moreso than I usually am, I mean
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Ugh. Did I say ten minutes? X_X Stupid, I meant an hour, but my sister chose that moment to tell me she'd be done with the shower in about ten minutes. -_-'
I've never been completely antisocial, because I have my little posse of studious asians to hang out with, but I've never been *popular* or very big on the social scene. I have a lot of classes where I don't have any friends, so when it's time to do group projects it can be extremely awkward, and I can understand why you might be unhappy. I would almost say, try to join a club or a team or something... but I know how difficult that can be when everyone seems to be in impenetrable cliques, and you feel awkward trying to join in. :-( Unfortunately, that's the way school is.
Two weeks ago, I was in my "extremely lonely" phase, when I was desperate for love and attention and feeling gloomy because I had no best friend or boyfriend, and everyone around me seemed to be so much more together than I was. But I snapped out of that, and now I'm in my "go away everyone" phase when I don't FEEL like talking or associating with people a lot. I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter how you feel now it'll change soon.
-_- Yeah, after going to a big party last night, I realized that again I'm getting really lonely. I had some trouble with people I thought were my friends, but who had no problem keeping secrets from me. [/bitter] But I realized that my friends aren't as close as I thought, so now I'm angry and sad.
I'm sorry you're lonely, but hey, it's your last year of public school, so pretty soon you'll get to leave and go somewhere new and make some new friends, right? I wish I could do that... I wish I could just start over somewhere. I'm so sick of my town.
I read that post, and found I could relate to it. (I posted a somewhat long monologue over there, mostly just thinking-out-loud. I haven't actually been able to say anything encouraging on the topic as I don't think someone with no friends has any place to talk about friendships in an encouraging way...)
AH!!! O_O !Exclamation Point! Don't remind me! -_-' I'm scared to death of what might happen once I'm out of school and on my own. Actually, I have a few more years yet 'til then, because I'm going to stick around at my mom's house while I attend the local county college (my mother's suggestion, and really the only kind of higher education I can afford at the moment). But GOD! I might be excited about going to new places and meeting new people if I had some degree of confidence in my ability to interact with said new people. I don't think I'll have any more people skills in California than I do in Jersey...
Actually, though I'm looking forward to leaving home in a couple years, it IS a very daunting prospect... I've had roughly the same group of friends since middle school, so though they irritate me sometimes and on some level I can't wait to get rid of them (God, that sounded so mean!), I'm also afraid of losing them and their support and affection. In some ways, going away will be good, but it will definitely be scary.
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If you were somebody else, you'd have to worry about other stuff... except instead of YGO purchases, you might have to worry about drug money, or other stuff equally severe. I know this sounds cheesy but try to find positives aspects in everything negative. It'll make you happy, and will actually reduce stress.
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Two weeks ago, I was in my "extremely lonely" phase, when I was desperate for love and attention and feeling gloomy because I had no best friend or boyfriend, and everyone around me seemed to be so much more together than I was. But I snapped out of that, and now I'm in my "go away everyone" phase when I don't FEEL like talking or associating with people a lot. I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter how you feel now it'll change soon.
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I'm sorry you're lonely, but hey, it's your last year of public school, so pretty soon you'll get to leave and go somewhere new and make some new friends, right? I wish I could do that... I wish I could just start over somewhere. I'm so sick of my town.
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AH!!! O_O !Exclamation Point! Don't remind me! -_-' I'm scared to death of what might happen once I'm out of school and on my own. Actually, I have a few more years yet 'til then, because I'm going to stick around at my mom's house while I attend the local county college (my mother's suggestion, and really the only kind of higher education I can afford at the moment). But GOD! I might be excited about going to new places and meeting new people if I had some degree of confidence in my ability to interact with said new people. I don't think I'll have any more people skills in California than I do in Jersey...
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