ben is magic. it is amazing how quickly everything can change.

so my new motto is, at least when i am sleeping i cant be sad.
this equals turbo napping.

also, i have lost all motivation to do anything including shower, homework and eating. (ew)
i just wander around my building looking to be distracted.

in other news, my mommy and my stepdad sent me tulips <3

today i just feel like throwing up/sleeping

painted my nails grapefruit color

got a valentines present from my mom

played the sims 2

& read ezra pound and william carlos williams

!

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my mum says that maybe ben wanted to keep me closer than i wanted to be kept

this morning i took a long walk in the gardern. i think i am going to plant seeds in the spring ( Read more... )

they say that the person you love the most, is also the person you hate the most. recently, this couldnt be more true.
(aka i broke up with ben, hopefully not for forever)

talking to my mum and chelsea makes me feel much better though and i think im making the right decision.

ps shopping/eating out to ease the pain?