"Happy Birthday Amelia"
Umm it's 9:54 and so far
this birthday almost outdoes my last
for worst birthday ever...
My eyes are so puffy,
salt is dried on my cheeks,
I've been crying and i feel guilty and I'm a horrible person,
thanks dad!
I'm sorry I slept through my first class,
I'm sorry I'm so "disapointing"
and that IS what you said I was.
I'm sorry I wasn't at the hospital as much
as I wish i was,
I'm sorry i'm so damn superficial,
I'm sorry i never meant to hurt anyone,
I'm sorry i moved out without telling you why,
I didnt want to hurt anyone,
I'm sorry you don't feel like I'm there for the right reasons,
I'm sorry I lied for my sister,
I'm not going to lie for her anymore.
I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry kim,
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry I lied...
I want to disapear but I know I'll be sorry for that too.
I want to go away but I'll feel guilty for that too.
I can't do this anymore but i'm sorry and i will.
I'll swallow this, like I swallowed everything else.
I love you kim, I wish I was a better friend,
I wish you were here, so I can apologize to your face,
I know "she's listening" its not the same.
I dont want her on my shoulder,
I want her in my arms.
I'm selfish and i'm sorry,
I kissed him and I'm sorry,
I want to be close to all your friends and I'm sorry.
I always do this and I'm sorry.
This isn't about me, this isnt about me.
Dad, please just leave me alone,
I didnt want anything for my birthday
except freedom, a trip to see my sister,
Thanks for not supporting me,
I'm sorry it seems i dont care,
that i dont appreciate, I'm sorry
I'm so DAMN sorry.
I'm sorry mom, for the way i did things,
I wish someone would stop playing that
DAMN CELINE DION SONG, "because you loved me."
Happy birthday amelia, spend it locked in your room,
spend it without who you've spent them with
as long as you can remember, no one.
Not Kim, Not Brittany, Not Shirley, Not Mom,
Not Stephanie...
why did I do all this? I am so destructive.
I guess i'm in that guilt stage,
it sucks. i'm sorry.
this birthday almost outdoes my last
for worst birthday ever...
My eyes are so puffy,
salt is dried on my cheeks,
I've been crying and i feel guilty and I'm a horrible person,
thanks dad!
I'm sorry I slept through my first class,
I'm sorry I'm so "disapointing"
and that IS what you said I was.
I'm sorry I wasn't at the hospital as much
as I wish i was,
I'm sorry i'm so damn superficial,
I'm sorry i never meant to hurt anyone,
I'm sorry i moved out without telling you why,
I didnt want to hurt anyone,
I'm sorry you don't feel like I'm there for the right reasons,
I'm sorry I lied for my sister,
I'm not going to lie for her anymore.
I'm sorry dad, I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry kim,
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry I lied...
I want to disapear but I know I'll be sorry for that too.
I want to go away but I'll feel guilty for that too.
I can't do this anymore but i'm sorry and i will.
I'll swallow this, like I swallowed everything else.
I love you kim, I wish I was a better friend,
I wish you were here, so I can apologize to your face,
I know "she's listening" its not the same.
I dont want her on my shoulder,
I want her in my arms.
I'm selfish and i'm sorry,
I kissed him and I'm sorry,
I want to be close to all your friends and I'm sorry.
I always do this and I'm sorry.
This isn't about me, this isnt about me.
Dad, please just leave me alone,
I didnt want anything for my birthday
except freedom, a trip to see my sister,
Thanks for not supporting me,
I'm sorry it seems i dont care,
that i dont appreciate, I'm sorry
I'm so DAMN sorry.
I'm sorry mom, for the way i did things,
I wish someone would stop playing that
DAMN CELINE DION SONG, "because you loved me."
Happy birthday amelia, spend it locked in your room,
spend it without who you've spent them with
as long as you can remember, no one.
Not Kim, Not Brittany, Not Shirley, Not Mom,
Not Stephanie...
why did I do all this? I am so destructive.
I guess i'm in that guilt stage,
it sucks. i'm sorry.