New Vid: Sleepwalker (The OC, Seth/Ryan)
Video that fought not to be, I set you freeeeeeeeeee.
Title: Sleepwalker
Song Artist: Adam Lambert
Video Artist: Fabella (wistful_fever)
Source: The OC, s1-s4.
Summary: Ryan's angry love. Seth/Ryan, Ryan.
Disclaimer: The OC and "Sleepwalker" do not belong to me. Neither are being represented in the fashion the creators intended. I think.
Length: 3:49 divx avi
Downloads & Streams
78.62mb @ 4shared
(links updated 2/22/12)
Making this video was a very long road for me. I've wanted to make another video for The OC for a long time, because while I've ventured there before, I never really vidded beyond season two, except for the mini season-four video I did not too long ago (while this video was marinating in the background incidentally). The thing about this video is that I really loved the show, and I really loved the characters, but they disappointed me somehow, in the end. I don't usually tinhat, but a large part of me really believed that they might "go there" with Seth and Ryan. There was just so much love, chemistry, and history between the characters, and it it felt to me, like Ryan was just constantly put through the ringer, and him ending up with the female version of Seth? Was just a slap in the face. I relate mostly to Ryan, is the truth. We both have that "not quite good enough" mentality, and we both really, really love the coltish geeky beauty of Seth. I feel like Seth's character made this unintentional promise to Ryan in the very first episode that he would take him to paradise, and that he never quite came through on that. By season two, Seth was the one turning down hugs, in a sense erasing the embrace from the first episode. It was hard on me to make a video exploring how Ryan doesn't get to have the comfort of Seth in the end, not even a little bit, despite the other slap in the face, the wedding shot, where they are standing as if about to get married. Grr.
But that's what happened. That's my show. My head!canon is that they ended up together somewhere down the road, that it really was inevitable, and you know, I'm gonna buy a fic writer from an auction one day and beg them to write that ending for me. It will be schmoopy and domestic, and they will buy curtains. *nods*
But back to the video, I really wanted Ryan to not be okay about it. To be that "crying in the shower after a breakup" feeling. And I really wanted to argue that yes, Ryan did love Seth. Passionately. Endlessly. That Seth was his healthiest, most solid, unchanging relationship... and the most devastating for it's stasis. It was pretty clear that Ryan never thought of Seth as a brother, and maybe there's another video in that, because Seth always wanted to be that brother in a lot of ways, and Ryan rejected that completely. Is there a song that can even capture that? Hmm.
Visually, I wanted to keep the colors simple, very desaturated, with an edge of light. I had an extremely difficult time choosing clips with this one, which is one reason why this video would not end. Sometimes working with more source is harder than working with too little. There is so much Seth/Ryan, and some of my choices would have said the same exact thing, so I placed and deleted a lot of clips fairly regularly throughout the making of this. In the end, I tried to go with less obvious choices in some areas, to highlight some moments that might have been overlooked. I also wanted clips that followed lines of movement, which narrowed my choices down a little.
A couple of the scenes in 00:48 to 1:03 still kill me. If anyone ever tried to tell me Ryan Atwood loved Seth in a pure, brotherly way? I would point them there. That leads me to another tone I wanted in place in this video, and that was a slightly sexual one. I wanted to capture the orbit between them, how they bumped against each other and were sent spinning, how Seth was kind of in Ryan's pocket all the time, and it was slightly uncomfortable, and no wonder Ryan loved him, what choice did he have really? The lonely boy in Seth demanded it. I wrote something like that in a fic once, that involved Seth in boxers and Ryan being like, "not fair!" and someone made a comment about that in response, and yes, I think that's partially where this video idea stemmed from. Ryan's "What the fuck happened to me? You made me love you, and fucked me up so bad."
In the end that's what this video is, and it's a video I deeply relate to.
Be angry, Ryan Atwood. Go punch things.
Feedback is more than welcome.
Title: Sleepwalker
Song Artist: Adam Lambert
Video Artist: Fabella (wistful_fever)
Source: The OC, s1-s4.
Summary: Ryan's angry love. Seth/Ryan, Ryan.
Disclaimer: The OC and "Sleepwalker" do not belong to me. Neither are being represented in the fashion the creators intended. I think.
Length: 3:49 divx avi
Downloads & Streams
78.62mb @ 4shared
(links updated 2/22/12)
Click to viewMaking this video was a very long road for me. I've wanted to make another video for The OC for a long time, because while I've ventured there before, I never really vidded beyond season two, except for the mini season-four video I did not too long ago (while this video was marinating in the background incidentally). The thing about this video is that I really loved the show, and I really loved the characters, but they disappointed me somehow, in the end. I don't usually tinhat, but a large part of me really believed that they might "go there" with Seth and Ryan. There was just so much love, chemistry, and history between the characters, and it it felt to me, like Ryan was just constantly put through the ringer, and him ending up with the female version of Seth? Was just a slap in the face. I relate mostly to Ryan, is the truth. We both have that "not quite good enough" mentality, and we both really, really love the coltish geeky beauty of Seth. I feel like Seth's character made this unintentional promise to Ryan in the very first episode that he would take him to paradise, and that he never quite came through on that. By season two, Seth was the one turning down hugs, in a sense erasing the embrace from the first episode. It was hard on me to make a video exploring how Ryan doesn't get to have the comfort of Seth in the end, not even a little bit, despite the other slap in the face, the wedding shot, where they are standing as if about to get married. Grr.
But that's what happened. That's my show. My head!canon is that they ended up together somewhere down the road, that it really was inevitable, and you know, I'm gonna buy a fic writer from an auction one day and beg them to write that ending for me. It will be schmoopy and domestic, and they will buy curtains. *nods*
But back to the video, I really wanted Ryan to not be okay about it. To be that "crying in the shower after a breakup" feeling. And I really wanted to argue that yes, Ryan did love Seth. Passionately. Endlessly. That Seth was his healthiest, most solid, unchanging relationship... and the most devastating for it's stasis. It was pretty clear that Ryan never thought of Seth as a brother, and maybe there's another video in that, because Seth always wanted to be that brother in a lot of ways, and Ryan rejected that completely. Is there a song that can even capture that? Hmm.
Visually, I wanted to keep the colors simple, very desaturated, with an edge of light. I had an extremely difficult time choosing clips with this one, which is one reason why this video would not end. Sometimes working with more source is harder than working with too little. There is so much Seth/Ryan, and some of my choices would have said the same exact thing, so I placed and deleted a lot of clips fairly regularly throughout the making of this. In the end, I tried to go with less obvious choices in some areas, to highlight some moments that might have been overlooked. I also wanted clips that followed lines of movement, which narrowed my choices down a little.
A couple of the scenes in 00:48 to 1:03 still kill me. If anyone ever tried to tell me Ryan Atwood loved Seth in a pure, brotherly way? I would point them there. That leads me to another tone I wanted in place in this video, and that was a slightly sexual one. I wanted to capture the orbit between them, how they bumped against each other and were sent spinning, how Seth was kind of in Ryan's pocket all the time, and it was slightly uncomfortable, and no wonder Ryan loved him, what choice did he have really? The lonely boy in Seth demanded it. I wrote something like that in a fic once, that involved Seth in boxers and Ryan being like, "not fair!" and someone made a comment about that in response, and yes, I think that's partially where this video idea stemmed from. Ryan's "What the fuck happened to me? You made me love you, and fucked me up so bad."
In the end that's what this video is, and it's a video I deeply relate to.
Be angry, Ryan Atwood. Go punch things.
Feedback is more than welcome.