Portland!* Me!**

[witchbabyblue]

Here.

2-3 weeks, and then pretty much directly into the next stage of Chronic Lyme treatment. Which in the extreme could mean I don't (at least from this realm of consciousness) see Portland again; but in my determined, swollen, hope-pumping heart may (may may maybe) allow me to return by Spring/Summer. But details like that are for the next

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[sasayaku]

I'm so glad you're back. Please *do* post some news of your health /life etc!

[witchbabyblue]

Meikooo! Wow; do you even realize how seriously, deeply kind & sweethearted you are?! You've kept so close to me, & from such [literal] distances. Watching in sweet whispers over me- sending lovely mail-bits across oceans- I could go on... But I think you know how much I feel that so much difference is in the details; & it's the sort of compassioned details you've gently given me that make so much of the larger-picture difference. That contain & lift Hope, spirit, heart...

Which leads me to wonder: Your heart is surely composed of at least part fairie dust, no?

Hmm. Well, regardless of your genetic composition (be you fey, feline, fish, human, or curiously kind cyborg) you're more or less [more than] amazing. I *really* hope you know this.
And I'm incredibly glad to be back in this space with you guys, as well- of course, of course, of course times infinity!

Love,
Bird

[crista]

Hey you =)

Good to see you're still around and kicking. Your words and presence has been missed. I can't wait to read the recap.

*mawhs*

-Crista

[witchbabyblue]

Pink-heart doppleganger! My words and presence have missed your words & presence. (See also: my kisses, yours, Once Upon A Time in a brief, glittery haven of togetherness.)

Whenever possible- if I couldn't interact directly with people online- I still tried to check in on them, keep some track of the mile-scattered love that's so much of me/my life. (Peeks at Myspace, journals, etc.)
And you? Seem to be kicking some serious ass. There've definitely been happy-tears as I've read some of your own updates, Crista Sista Sweet.

xxo,
R-Bird

[mermaidsinlove]

I've missed you!!! I'm so glad you're okay! I don't even know what to say! *big major squishes*

[witchbabyblue]

Since arriving in PDX once more, I seem to have started saying "ditto" a lot. I think maybe it has something to do with concepts & people like you. There's just-- so much. So many missed magical details, so much beauty to inhale; so much I've missed or not known fully for too long. Even when feeling sick, it's got a "Just Like Heaven" sparkle to it.
Yet "ditto" is a pretty lame word w/ which to respond to a Mermaid as lovely as you, huh?

Just... I am okay. I plan & will kick hard every day to "be okay";
Hope as my brightest night-light, always.

And the amazing people in my life are such a part of that Hope.
Someday (yes! it will happen! f-f-fiiinally, right?!) we'll be in my home- & I'll show you my most contoured & detailed night-light, in a space slowly glowing w/ more & more of them. She's a mermaid hanging over the ocean on a sliver of moon, in this gorgeous & almost photo-like detail. And *somehow*... I think you'd really like that.

So much love to you, J. And of course, some seriously squishy squishes, as well!
xxo, R.

[witchbabyblue]

Heeey- it's one of my favorite backs in the world! (And the person in front of the back? Well, she's pretty incredible too.) Wow, even that snippet of photo-beauty made me get teary, when I first saw it again.

I think about you often too, yes, wow- that is definitely the truth. I have (and do)
miss you
so
so
much.

Has Le Petit Prince furthered his expansion across your skin, since fox & stars found a home there as well?! And hey- look!- you just might remember this spinning rainbow pressed to my skin, then pressed to your own, yes? Smiling... I'm just smiling, smiling. Love.

you reminded me of... a poem, of course!

[punch_intheface]

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings;and of the gay
great happening ilimitably earth)....

welcome back, bird.

Re: you reminded me of... a poem, of course!

[witchbabyblue]

This?
Made me burst into tears
in the most healing of ways

such a beautiful release-

You?
Your friendship, warmth, devotion
continues to amaze me.

For now, just: I've missed you very much. To hug, to hug, to hug you & sense you close would be... I don't think I can conjure the Right Words at this moment. I don't know if I even deserve your amazing friendship & fortitude- but I will give back, whenever I can, with all that I've got. Which is a lot, regardless of how well or sick I am at the time.

I love you, monkey-punches... also, pssst: Whoa, wow! WHO wrote that poem?!
I could google it or guess at it, but hearing about words in your words... is just better on so many levels.

My heart, my heart, spread open to your warmth;
Robin

[punch_intheface]

ah, dear lady, it is e.e. cummings. though i think i owe him an apology; i copied and pasted from a website that incorrectly capitalized the "you" in the first line. i also didn't include the second half of the poem... well, you'll just have to find your way to me and explore his complete works on my bookshelf.

i guarantee there will be a comfy couch and lots of tea when the time comes. :-)

[witchbabyblue]

oooh, but silly (& adorable, ok, yeah yeah) lady, you totally know that i'm among the more extremes of us bibliophile/bookworm-creatures! eliot or cummings would have been my guesses, but hey you!- i have many of their books. what i don't have is You- missed hugs- lingering over tea in nests of pillows.

see: spoon theory.
see: friendship & touch = best. medicine. ever. (ha! wow, i'm such a geek-poet that i can even semi-fluidly recommend an amazing book here- The Changing Brain, by Norman Doidge. Wow & wow.) return to