In My Life

[witchicist]

This many years in, I thought it would be different. That I would be more confident, have more money, be able to speak in public without my voice trembling. That I wouldn't keep falling back into my closets inadvertently. That, in short, I would be a better person.

Real life is hard. People are hard. Money is hard. It's all... so...

Hard.

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[northlighthero]

Real life has always been hard, except for those moments that feel like it's easy. As I've grown older, I've found ways to keep myself noticing more of the easy moments. The hard ones are maybe a little bit easier to take because of knowing for sure that they will pass. But not much.

When money is hardest, for me, one thing that helps (paradoxically, for sure) is to give some away. Whether it's a dollar in a collection plate or a no-longer-used Excellent Object to the local donation bin, or maybe some food to the local food pantry... what I keep finding is that money is like oxygen -- you have to keep it going in and out in order to get enough.

If that sounds like advice, it isn't -- it's just what works for me. Your mileage may vary, of course. And I hope things get easier for you by and by.