[locked to Ruvin]

[with_coffee]

I don't know what's the

You I

[Some time and a shot of calming juice latah]

What is

GOING

ON?

[More time later after drugs has worn off]

Also, you haven't done anything to me that hasn't made me better in the long run so don't keep spouting off your apologies to me, understand?

Comments

[changingtheodds]

I don't

Just

The more I find out about myself, what I've done, everything I've done--

I

[scratches and scribbles]

[with_coffee]

I don't care about what you've done.

Dusty doesn't either. Remember that I wasn't there for you, but you don't think I'm not worthy of your friendship anymore, do you? Even if I d You shouldn't hold separate standards for yourself. She makes you happy. I know that. You deserve that. You make her happy, too. It's not about deserving. You fit.

Ruvin, we've been over this. You were raised in a particular way (the abuse). I mean to say with a particular set of beliefs. It's not your fault. You have a certain set of powers. It's going to take much longer than the time you've spent here to work on changing that.

[changingtheodds]

I don't even know

Who am I? I don't

I'm tired. I'm so tired. It's like there's a fist pressing against my chest all the time and if I stop moving, if I put my back up against anything it will just pin me and I won't be able to move any more.

[with_coffee]

[THE FOLLOWING HANDWRITING IS SUPER CONTROLLED YET SLIGHTLY SHAKY]

You're Ruvin. You're my sister friend. I care about you. I don't know what else to tell you, but I don't want you to have to go through all this alone. I don't want to lose you when you're the only reason I

Stop running. Please. Let me figure out how to help you. I can do- I can do something now that I'm better that's the whole point of that, wasn't it? So that I wouldn't keep hurting, but helping instead and I can