i had a dream last night that we almost had a functional conversation, but then some girl two years older than me who went to my high school (who i've never talked to before) tried to hook up with me and got me arrested for sexual harrassment. cops came and handcuffed me while i was on the phone with emily, and they were leading me down lots and ( Read more... )

but i'm letting you.

- are you dressing up for halloween?
ryan: yeah.
- what are you gonna be?
ryan: you'll see. you'll read about it in the newspaper.

we don't acknowledge anything about anything because it'll get in the way of superficially filling voids we created for ourselves this summer. maybe i'm just speaking for myself. if i could go back and re-live last october .. to maybe the end of may, i would do it so quickly. i wouldn't change much of october-march because an emotionally crippled ( Read more... )

just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there.

fuck i probably shouldn't have signed online. i'm just upset now. i should have just gone to sleep. i'm dead tired and i have work for ten hours tomorrow. i just wanted to hear from you today. i went to the marina in nyack with alyssa and sam and wished you were with me because you're all i ever think about. i seriously only ever want you to call, ( Read more... )

i feel like something is eating away at my intestines.

god fuckin' damnit.

detach.

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