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Dear Zakary;
Ambivalence is your only interest.
I don't know if that's pertaining to you or I; but I suppose that's not of importance anymore.
I don't want anyone else to have you; i'm selfish.
existentialROBOT: zak
existentialROBOT: whats wrong with me?
DEBRIS disease: not a fucking thing
DEBRIS disease: you're the wonderfullest
DEBRIS disease: i have never met a girl more perfect
I guess i'm not so perfect anymore; I'm far from that, lately.
DEBRIS disease: ii love you
DEBRIS disease: i love you
DEBRIS disease: i swear to god though aleesha, i have
never
DEBRIS disease: ever
DEBRIS disease: felt the need
DEBRIS disease: to say 'i love you' so many times
DEBRIS disease: to a person
DEBRIS disease: even if i loved them or thought i did or
was to the point where i said it, it was like, 'bye i ly'
DEBRIS disease: but i just, want to say it all the tiem cuz
its all i can think of
--
DEBRIS disease: god i love you
DEBRIS disease: you do make me so happy alee
DEBRIS disease: the thought of you gets me through
every minute i wantt to start a fight or cry or get mad or die, i
can almost always think of you and decide its not worth it
Any girl would die to have you; any boy for that matter. There's nothing special about me to hold you down but somehow we lasted for more than a year.
DEBRIS disease: i don't want to hurt any more. this is fucking ridiculous. i want to be the person i was a year ago.
existentialROBOT: you want to be polygamous? and not care?
DEBRIS disease: i didn't get hurt back then, you know.
existentialROBOT: well, i'm sorry.
existentialROBOT: i'm sorry i make your life worse.
DEBRIS disease: no.
DEBRIS disease: you don't.
DEBRIS disease: but it's
DEBRIS disease: teh fact that i made yours worse adn just, that i've become so dependatn on you and i don't even know why and i don't want to be dependant on any one.
existentialROBOT: then dont be dependant on me.
existentialROBOT: if that's what you want.
DEBRIS disease: i don't know what to say to that.
DEBRIS disease: you make it seem like youy don't want me to stop.
existentialROBOT: i don't.
DEBRIS disease: why not.
existentialROBOT: i'm selfish
DEBRIS disease: why wouldn't you even say good bye to me.
existentialROBOT: because i dont want to give you up
I'll always be yours, even if it's only in your heart. I promise this isn't the end of us, though.
love,
your aleeasirusis
Ambivalence is your only interest.
I don't know if that's pertaining to you or I; but I suppose that's not of importance anymore.
I don't want anyone else to have you; i'm selfish.
existentialROBOT: zak
existentialROBOT: whats wrong with me?
DEBRIS disease: not a fucking thing
DEBRIS disease: you're the wonderfullest
DEBRIS disease: i have never met a girl more perfect
I guess i'm not so perfect anymore; I'm far from that, lately.
DEBRIS disease: ii love you
DEBRIS disease: i love you
DEBRIS disease: i swear to god though aleesha, i have
never
DEBRIS disease: ever
DEBRIS disease: felt the need
DEBRIS disease: to say 'i love you' so many times
DEBRIS disease: to a person
DEBRIS disease: even if i loved them or thought i did or
was to the point where i said it, it was like, 'bye i ly'
DEBRIS disease: but i just, want to say it all the tiem cuz
its all i can think of
--
DEBRIS disease: god i love you
DEBRIS disease: you do make me so happy alee
DEBRIS disease: the thought of you gets me through
every minute i wantt to start a fight or cry or get mad or die, i
can almost always think of you and decide its not worth it
Any girl would die to have you; any boy for that matter. There's nothing special about me to hold you down but somehow we lasted for more than a year.
DEBRIS disease: i don't want to hurt any more. this is fucking ridiculous. i want to be the person i was a year ago.
existentialROBOT: you want to be polygamous? and not care?
DEBRIS disease: i didn't get hurt back then, you know.
existentialROBOT: well, i'm sorry.
existentialROBOT: i'm sorry i make your life worse.
DEBRIS disease: no.
DEBRIS disease: you don't.
DEBRIS disease: but it's
DEBRIS disease: teh fact that i made yours worse adn just, that i've become so dependatn on you and i don't even know why and i don't want to be dependant on any one.
existentialROBOT: then dont be dependant on me.
existentialROBOT: if that's what you want.
DEBRIS disease: i don't know what to say to that.
DEBRIS disease: you make it seem like youy don't want me to stop.
existentialROBOT: i don't.
DEBRIS disease: why not.
existentialROBOT: i'm selfish
DEBRIS disease: why wouldn't you even say good bye to me.
existentialROBOT: because i dont want to give you up
I'll always be yours, even if it's only in your heart. I promise this isn't the end of us, though.
love,
your aleeasirusis