You begin to miss people. To yern for them. The longing and desire for the feel of their fingertips, or the sound of their voice. Its inevidable. It begins to feel as though you've taken forgranted each little thing you've loved the most. And this is a terrible way to have things work; take them completley forgranted while you have them, and be ( Read more... )

Josh left today. Well, actually, he left yesterday. But today to El Paso. I don't know how long it will be before I see him again. I always find myself wishing that I'd treasured the time he was here more. But after a 4 day drinking binge, I wasn't quite myself. (That is never happening again, btw.) Actually, I'm quitting smoking, too. I'm down to ( Read more... )

Its worthless. The whole of it.
Without recognition for the faces you've loved before. Because thier expressions have warped into dissapointment and doubt. You've nothing left to lose. No hope in man. No faith in any of your once solid dreams.

Cruelty.

Loss of desire, of drive. Passion. Worn down soles with no story to tell. Half-hearted wishes ( Read more... )

Disowned by second family ( Read more... )

"When you dim your light to let someone else shine, the whole world gets darker."

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I'm engaged.

The scent is overwhelming. Its without feeling, without concience. Seeping into my sense-- making them bleed. Clotting into shapes resembling an enemie's lost battle-- and enemie's lost kin. Perfumes should not be so harsh. Scents should not be so discernable. This should lose all of you: one of you isn't worthy of the other. Causing the stench of ( Read more... )

( no word since saturday. No word at all. )

The lights are dim, the air earie. She slides in through the doors, and at first, you're not sure why she's come. Her intent becomes more apparent when she passes you with no more than a mumble under her breath and a half-hearted smile saying she'll be drinking alone. And you stop to study her momentairily; with her new wave hair cut and her boots ( Read more... )