i dont know what happened, but i have to do this for myself.
"Well, um, for instance, -if the forms of this world die, which is more real, the me that dies or the me that's infinite? Can I trust my habitual mind or do I need to learn to look beneath those things?" -i <3 huckabee's
it's weird when you put into perspective what matters and what doesn't. after watching one too many deep and insightful movies this weekend i think things just got 10 times more confusing. i don't know if it was the mix of a really shitty weekend, with some selective not so great friends and the i <3 huckabee's ideal of "there is no remainder in the mathematics of infinity" that went over my head. and on top of all this summer is almost here which is usually a good time but it is just coming too fast. im not really all that sad at seeing the perticular seniors @ our school leaving, but it's the whole idea of all that. and then ontop of that matt will be gone all summer/all year/for the next 5 years. time to say bye to the best friend.
i think we all just need to scream at the top of our lungs and get everything out. or atleast i do. everything is just moving too fast. i was driving down 14 mile, listening to 'but then again no' and i looked behind me and i saw scrawny. remember him...like 4 years ago? just barely. it was one of those things where i was like "i'm not going to forget this ok? don't ever forget this" and then what do you know? you've forgotten it. i suppose theres some psychological reason for that but i wouldn't know (considering i probably got a 1 on the stupid psych ap. thanks for showing up twist.) anyways. there was something important i wanted to say i swear. ha too bad theres not. AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
there we go.