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[jeweled_angel]

ok so ive been thinking alot lately and I really feel horrible. I feel like im not even really a wittnes anymore. I try I really do but it seems like im drifting more and more. I havent prayed in a long time. everytime i try it never really turns into a real prayer. I start with jehovah i know its been so long since i have prayed and then i cant

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[rubyzib]

if you keep on thinking about all the stuff youre not doing, how can you look positively on what you are? last month i only had 2 hours of service. theres times when it really is that hard but you cant keep looking back and saying "i didnt do this or i didnt do that". look forward. take it step by step. maybe for next week make it your effort to do the watchtower and go to the meeting. then try to go to the ministry school. even if its by yourself. and if you dont feel brave enough, than call the kingdom hall and maybe you can listen to it by phone, or at the very least read over the information that would have been considered for that meeting. just dont think that you have to do it all right and all at once. thats practically impossible. it would be like trying to jump from the top of one mountain onto another one. start small and keep climging from there. personally, i think a good starting goal would be to try and pray regularly. ask Jehovah to guide you and help you give you the energy/bravery to make goals.

[jeweled_angel]

thanks for the advise. its just so hard for me because i used to be so spiritual. I dont know how i got to this point. its so depressing and i know jehovah is really unhappy with me right now. i wish my husband could support me when im weak like this but i feel like im the one supporting us, and not very well. i think ill try to just concentrate on myself then maybe i can be in a position to work on our joint spirituality. I really love my husband ALOT, i just wish things were better. thanks again.

[dinnertablejail]

If you don't what to pray for, that's ok. Not everyone is good at describing how they feel. But don't forget that Jehovah knows us better than ourselves. It says in the Bible (can't remember where right now) that if we don't know how to put all our emotions and worries into words, Jehovah can discern exactly what you want to say without you actually saying it. So like rubyzib said, prayer is first. You don't have to feel discouraged because you don't know what to say.

[jeweled_angel]

I remember reading that somewhere before. thanks for the reminder. i think i will start with prayer. if i force myself to do it i think i will. and then with jeh's help maybe everything will get better. thanks guys!

[fragilentity]

i want to say thank you so much for telling us this! i'm sure getting this problem out there took a lot of courage and you should be commended for that. but, now that we know the problem, and you know exactly what the problem is, why not turn to Jehovah telling him exactly what you told us?

A lot of times when I pray, I don't know what to say, and I have to just sit there with my eyes closed and search deep inside myself for the things that bother me. I always remember that Jehovah is the hearer of prayer no matter how long or short the prayer is, as long as we do it.

Also, try and be positive! You're still a dedicated and baptized witness of Jehovah until Jehovah says you aren't, and so far he hasn't! We all get downtrodden and discouraged at times but remember that Satan uses discouragement as a way to break our realtionship with Jehovah -- don't let him win!

*hugs* Comfort

[jeweled_angel]

thank you for your support. im glad i got it all off my chest on here. its so easy. its really hard to talk to people in person about stuff like this. its nice to get comfort from brothers and sisters who dont even know me. i can tell jehovah really blesses us all in many ways, thank you.

[fragilentity]

you're so welcome! (my name is actually Comfort, so I try to live up to my name! hehe)