Fuck life..just kill me

[wmcolorguard06]

Why does fucking life have to be so fucked up..Why do so many ppl have to hate me..Why haven't I just died..Everyone wants me to..I know everyone on here once in the past year has wanted to kill me..So why the fuck haven't you..I mean look at me..I am ulgy..I fuck up relationships..I am a waste of air and a waste of space..I can't treat ppl how

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[piperluv21]

It seems like Joe really loves you and wants to be with you. I think you missed that, I think you would be happy with him. And Ive never wanted to kill you but you do make the wrong decisions sometimes. One guy is enough. You dont dont need three of them to make you happy, that just causes problems, it doesnt solve yours. You need to slow down and look and the world as a whole, not just in the aspect of which boyfriend you have and how long the relationship will last. There are friends, along with a social life, schoolwork(nobody wants to do it, but you wont get far without it), loving yourself and just so much more that you could focus on. Thats just the truth. Life isnt something that you can get on xanga and livejournal and mess with killing yourself or having others kill you. You are only a teenager. Do you realize that you have so much time in front of you?! Nobody finds real love in highschool, if they say they did, they lie. I would have killed myself a long time ago because I had some real problem all the way up

Yeah I understand

[wmcolorguard06]

I understand where you are coming from and I do understand what you are saying..I am all about myself and my world...I do look at the world as a whole..but like before the Josh shit and before the Andrew shit..you guys were my best friends...I would rather call you guys my sisters..but after all that its like you guys don't care about me..Like all I am is shit on a stick..Like I told you guys the night I got out..I think my number one reason I wanted to kill myself was cause you guys had traded me in..It was as if you guys didn't even know I was there or didn't even know the shit I was going through..Its not that easy to press charges against your uncle or do half the shit I have had to do..but I do it and you guys don't care..You guys just act as if I am not there..and I felt that none of you guys liked me no more..and I had lost my only sisters and I just wanted to die..thats all I have to say before I cry again..you guys are my sisters and I don't want to lose you all!

[sweetlilgeorgie]

Yeah Ash...Cheerios is right. Nobody wants to kill you...and nobody wants you to die. But you do make bad choices sometimes. Like the ways that you seem to treat men. Cheating, and playing multiple men isn't going to keep them around. It's just going to drive them away. But one thing I have noticed, is that you keep on going back to Joe Cody. You both have been through a lot with eachother. Parents trying to keep you apart, changing schools, graduation, cheating, problems with the law, ect. I think you really love him. I've read his xanga. He seems to really love you too. I've never seen someone express so much love for a person through a single journal entry. I wish Will would do that *sigh*. But anywho, I think the guy that truly loves you and wants to stay with you is right under your nose. And I have a strong feeling that he is going to love you no matter what. No matter what you do, and no matter what kind of mistakes you've made...he's always going to love you. And we (your friends) are always going to love you

Wow hun

[wmcolorguard06]

Babe will does love you as much as Joe loves me..Will may not express it as much as Joe does but I can tell in his eyes that he does.. I know Joe is right under my nose..but I need to date around and make sure..I mean I can't be 100% sure if I don't get out there and finish dating..I gotta have fun before I get married or settle down or it will never last.. yeah I know you will always love you..You have always been there for me no matter what I do..I love you like a sis..like I told courtney..I just wanna be able to trust and love you guys..You guys are like my sisters..my daddy calls you guys his daughters.. Thanks..Now I feel loved cause if I don't find the right one I can come to you..Love ya Georgie..

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[shadow_razorz]

I wrote this comment : why is it all you seem to do is complain about how much life sucks. Why the fuck don't you just get over yourself and try to fix it? or is that too damn hard? because if it is. Then yeah your fucked and you fucked youself. If your not willing to change or fix the situation then there is nothing you or anyone who gives a shit about you can do.

~Chrissy

But it goes with this entry...My bad. Good you get to read it twice.