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I had a dream last night (I know, I know...Ali..shut up with the dreams) that left me agitated when I woke up. It was a year and a half from now and Nathan and I were casually dating because I didn't trust him enough to rush into a serious relationship. Plus, he was still going to BYU-Idaho so there was the long distance factor. Anyway, for Christmas all of his siblings were going to their in-laws or doing their own thing and he whined to me about how he didn't want to go to Mississippi and do Christmas alone with his parents and Sam. So I agreed to ask my parents to put aside their hatred for him and let him come to Pennsylvania with me.
We get there and I have a repeat experience from last Christmas where I got the flu and was out cold for three days. Rich had gotten it a few days before me so he was recovering. My family decided that they wanted to go shopping and Nate decided he would stay and make sure I was alright. So I'm out cold and I wake up to the sound of Rich and Nate bickering at the foot of my bed about whether or not they should wake me up. Nate was adament that if they woke me up I would be even more upset than I already was and he'd never hear the end of it. Rich swore that I wasn't that sick because he had experienced the same thing a few days ago. I let them know that it didn't matter because they were idiots and decided to have this disagreement two feet away from my face. There is some discussion brought on by Rich about why I won't trust Nathan enough to actually date him and Nathan gets upset that after six months we hadn't really progressed beyond our casual status. Next thing I know, the fool pulls out a diamond ring from his pocket and blurts out the most unromantic proposal. I recall it with perfect clarity because I was so upset at dream Nathan for this.
"Ali, we've been on this roller coaster for the last decade and I love you. I like to think that you love me. You make me happy. I like to think that I make you happy most days. We could keep going around in circles, but what is the point? Who else are you going to marry?"
My dream self proceeded to rip him a new one.
Oh. I woke up and the first thing I did was grab my phone to wake his sorry ass up at five in the morning his time until I remembered the whole mission thing. But if he wasn't on his mission, his cell phone would have woken him up bright and early this morning. Proposing to me prematurely, AGAIN, in front of my brother, when I'm sick. Dream Nathan sucks. This dream honestly made me more upset than last year when we got into this.