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Can somebody just pleaseeeeeee fucking SHOOT ME?!
I'm so fucking fed up with volleyball right now. I love all the girls, but we all get to the points where we all just want to fucking deck each other. We seriously need to shape up, and we need to do it fast. I can honestly say that volleyball is bringing me down emotionally. I have never been this aggrivated before. STUPID LITTLE THINGS. damn, its like we're in 2nd grade. And dont think I'm not putting any of this on me, because trust me, I know I'm a bitch. I know I've said things that weren't right and things I shouldnt have said just because I cant take it anymore, and I appologize. But we shouldnt all be at that point where all of us just crack, all on each other and just get frusterated.
We are all better than what we act like, and we all know it. Off the court we can make each other laugh and tell jokes and have a good time together. But when we step on court, its like we're all enemies. Come on now. We need to cheer each other on instead of yelling at each other. For everything that Mike points out thats negative, becaues we know that happens alot, we need to bring each other up and say something positive to each other. And so what if we get down a few points, lets get them back. We cannot get down every time we start to lose, because if we do that every time, we just blow the game for ourselfs. We beat ourselfs down if someone else isnt. Its just ludacris, its nonsense. I mean, seriously..do we want to have each other on our asses every day? Helllll no, i know i dont.
I'm beyond the point of a breakdown right now, I'm not even gonna lie. I just cant handle this anymore. I want to be happy when i play. I want to have fun with the girls i love being around. We're a team, and we work as one. If you're mad at one person, you're mad at the team, and you're mad at yourself. We all know what we need to do to fix our problems, so lets do it. Please, because I'm just so ready to say fuck it. and I really dont want to do it. I am begging you girls, with all my heart, that we all come to practice tomorrow with new attitudes, ready to go, and ready to cheer each other on. Lets do shit right, the first time...not the 8th.
And I'm sure my mom is gonna get sick of me telling her the same stuff over and over again after practice. I know I'm gonna get sick of telling her. I dont like coming home from practice everyday and having to vent to her because I always have something to get off of my chest. I dont want the rest of the season to be like that..none of us do. So let's do something about it.
Seriously, I love you girls. Anything I say when I'm mad, blow it off. I don't mean half the shit I say. Let's just make the rest of the season worth while. And as Nicole said in her entry...call me a bitch, idc..I'm just telling it like it is.