Breaking Trust
Title:Breaking Trust
Author:ihrtkjr
Category:e/r, h/c, AU, and m-preg just because I don't really ever see them and I want to.
Spoilers:None right now, may change in the future.
Rating:NC-17
Pairing:eventual Ryan/Eric, in the past Ryan/Speed, and Ryan/OMC
Summary:My universe, Speed lives in this,but he hurts Ryan (not like that) in the past. Their relationship is in the past, and Ryan/Eric will be along shortly. Right now Ryan will go through a little bit of hell first with the guy he met after the breakup. And (poor Ryan) his trust will break even more.
Warning:smut,good old fashioned smut. It is a m/m fic, so you have been warned.
A/N: Don't own, just borrowing. Am making no money so don't sue. This is my first fic so please tell me if I am doing anything wrong, but no flames please. Is AU. I can't read every story out there no matter how hard I try, so if this is like something you've read before, please let me know. I do not want to infringe on anyone's territory. Or not give credit were it's due. I am using all the knowledge I have on the subject of police work. Not much. So if some one could tell me if i'm doing something wrong, I'd be grateful.
Beta:ihrtangusyoung
Part: 12/?
Previous Chapters
"We should talk." Ryan whispered.
"The statements?" Speed looked hopeful.
"Tim. Please."
"Why?"
"We should go see Angel."
"Ryan." Tim nearly broke.
"After work." Ryan handed the statements over and walked away.
"You know." Tim growled at Eric.
"He told me last night. Please talk to him."
"Eric-"
"You'll go. You both need it Speed. You can't ignore it forever." Eric grabbed his results and walked out the door.
"Hey H? Can I take off early? I need to pick up Jay."
"May I ask why?"
"They're going to talk."
"Eric."
"Horatio. You can't stand in front of him forever." Eric stared hard into his boss' eyes.
"Eric."
"Yes?"
"Go pick up your son."
"Thank you H."
"Ready?" Ryan asked.
"No. But you're right. We need to talk."
"You think you can replace her?"
"Is that what you think? Is that the reason you don't look at me any more, why you barely talk to Eric?" He sighed. "No. No one can replace our Angel. But I can't live in the past anymore and neither can you. Look what we have Tim."
"You think it's better this way?" Tim sobbed, emotions swamping him.
"That's a double edged sword." Ryan whispered.
"Why?"
"Why? Because we would have torn each other apart. Unintentionally, but we still would have done it."
"No." He shook his at the truth.
"Yes! Look at me!" He took Tim's face in his hands. "We would be married. We'd have Angel. And I would have come home and found you fucking your boss in our bed, and I'd have invited him to stay for dinner; because that's what you would have wanted. Then I would have gone out, found Eric, and fucked him senseless; because that's what I would have wanted. We would have done it over and over again, while still pretending to be the perfect happy family. And we would have torn each other apart."
"I wouldn't have cheated on you."
"You would have. Hell you did."
"Not if we were married."
"Yes if we were married. Because you love Horatio like I love Eric. And it is in no way, shape, or form like we love each other."
"You're right." Tim whispered, leaning his forehead against Ryan's. "I'm sorry I wasn't there."
"I was never mad at you for not being there. You couldn't control that." Ryan sighed.
"I'm sorry for fucking my boss."
"I'm not. In fact, I'm glad you did it. You really needed it." They both laughed.
"I should have told you Ry. I'm sorry I didn't."
They stood in silence over their daughters grave.
"We didn't even get to know her." Speed whispered.
"Yes we did." Ryan smiled at him. "She liked the way I made tea. She loved going for rides on your bike. She loved dancing with us. Remember Tim? She had her way of telling us."
"She loved us." Speed laughed. "You still got a thing for donuts?"
Ryan smiled, hugging Speed a little tighter. "Yep."
"Love you Ry." Speed said hugging back.
"Love you too Tim."
"He not only left you for Eric, but for Tim too." She laughed. "Doesn't that make you angry? Don't worry. I'll let you have your revenge. We just have to let the drugs wear off." She whispered into his ear. "We'll leave them for now, but later you and Derk can play with them all you want." She smiled as she drove off. 'Later boys. Later.' She patted Jesse on the head as he passed out again.
Author:ihrtkjr
Category:e/r, h/c, AU, and m-preg just because I don't really ever see them and I want to.
Spoilers:None right now, may change in the future.
Rating:NC-17
Pairing:eventual Ryan/Eric, in the past Ryan/Speed, and Ryan/OMC
Summary:My universe, Speed lives in this,but he hurts Ryan (not like that) in the past. Their relationship is in the past, and Ryan/Eric will be along shortly. Right now Ryan will go through a little bit of hell first with the guy he met after the breakup. And (poor Ryan) his trust will break even more.
Warning:smut,good old fashioned smut. It is a m/m fic, so you have been warned.
A/N: Don't own, just borrowing. Am making no money so don't sue. This is my first fic so please tell me if I am doing anything wrong, but no flames please. Is AU. I can't read every story out there no matter how hard I try, so if this is like something you've read before, please let me know. I do not want to infringe on anyone's territory. Or not give credit were it's due. I am using all the knowledge I have on the subject of police work. Not much. So if some one could tell me if i'm doing something wrong, I'd be grateful.
Beta:ihrtangusyoung
Part: 12/?
Previous Chapters
"We should talk." Ryan whispered.
"The statements?" Speed looked hopeful.
"Tim. Please."
"Why?"
"We should go see Angel."
"Ryan." Tim nearly broke.
"After work." Ryan handed the statements over and walked away.
"You know." Tim growled at Eric.
"He told me last night. Please talk to him."
"Eric-"
"You'll go. You both need it Speed. You can't ignore it forever." Eric grabbed his results and walked out the door.
"Hey H? Can I take off early? I need to pick up Jay."
"May I ask why?"
"They're going to talk."
"Eric."
"Horatio. You can't stand in front of him forever." Eric stared hard into his boss' eyes.
"Eric."
"Yes?"
"Go pick up your son."
"Thank you H."
"Ready?" Ryan asked.
"No. But you're right. We need to talk."
"You think you can replace her?"
"Is that what you think? Is that the reason you don't look at me any more, why you barely talk to Eric?" He sighed. "No. No one can replace our Angel. But I can't live in the past anymore and neither can you. Look what we have Tim."
"You think it's better this way?" Tim sobbed, emotions swamping him.
"That's a double edged sword." Ryan whispered.
"Why?"
"Why? Because we would have torn each other apart. Unintentionally, but we still would have done it."
"No." He shook his at the truth.
"Yes! Look at me!" He took Tim's face in his hands. "We would be married. We'd have Angel. And I would have come home and found you fucking your boss in our bed, and I'd have invited him to stay for dinner; because that's what you would have wanted. Then I would have gone out, found Eric, and fucked him senseless; because that's what I would have wanted. We would have done it over and over again, while still pretending to be the perfect happy family. And we would have torn each other apart."
"I wouldn't have cheated on you."
"You would have. Hell you did."
"Not if we were married."
"Yes if we were married. Because you love Horatio like I love Eric. And it is in no way, shape, or form like we love each other."
"You're right." Tim whispered, leaning his forehead against Ryan's. "I'm sorry I wasn't there."
"I was never mad at you for not being there. You couldn't control that." Ryan sighed.
"I'm sorry for fucking my boss."
"I'm not. In fact, I'm glad you did it. You really needed it." They both laughed.
"I should have told you Ry. I'm sorry I didn't."
They stood in silence over their daughters grave.
"We didn't even get to know her." Speed whispered.
"Yes we did." Ryan smiled at him. "She liked the way I made tea. She loved going for rides on your bike. She loved dancing with us. Remember Tim? She had her way of telling us."
"She loved us." Speed laughed. "You still got a thing for donuts?"
Ryan smiled, hugging Speed a little tighter. "Yep."
"Love you Ry." Speed said hugging back.
"Love you too Tim."
"He not only left you for Eric, but for Tim too." She laughed. "Doesn't that make you angry? Don't worry. I'll let you have your revenge. We just have to let the drugs wear off." She whispered into his ear. "We'll leave them for now, but later you and Derk can play with them all you want." She smiled as she drove off. 'Later boys. Later.' She patted Jesse on the head as he passed out again.