Health Update
I have the next two days off, so I am trying really hard to get this to let go and get better.
- I have talked to my Kaiser doc. She perscribed more vicodin and soma. Yech. I can only take them when I don't need to function at all.
- I am doing all the stretchy, icey, resty, exercisy, things that my chiropractor and Rimble have told me to do. owowowow.
- The right shoulder is drawn up so tight, I look like Quasimodo, from the Hunchback of Notre Dame. Pain is constant and bad enough that I am not going to any of the rituals, classes, meetings that make life good. Major suckage.
- RCDwarf is back to work, this week. So I no longer have a ride to things that are essential and necessary. So they have stopped being so essential and necessary. More major suckage.
I miss everyone. I am tired of being alone, and lonely. RCDwarf is working out in his shed, most evenings, and I am not welcome out there, cause I 'get in his way'. So the days are all empty, and the nights are too. I understand that all of these things combined are making life worse. I understand that stressing about it all makes my shoulder worse. I am cause in a loop that I don't know how to cut, and driving myself deeper into depression with every turn of the wheel. I can see it, I just cannot seem to change it.
bleh.
Sparrow
- I have talked to my Kaiser doc. She perscribed more vicodin and soma. Yech. I can only take them when I don't need to function at all.
- I am doing all the stretchy, icey, resty, exercisy, things that my chiropractor and Rimble have told me to do. owowowow.
- The right shoulder is drawn up so tight, I look like Quasimodo, from the Hunchback of Notre Dame. Pain is constant and bad enough that I am not going to any of the rituals, classes, meetings that make life good. Major suckage.
- RCDwarf is back to work, this week. So I no longer have a ride to things that are essential and necessary. So they have stopped being so essential and necessary. More major suckage.
I miss everyone. I am tired of being alone, and lonely. RCDwarf is working out in his shed, most evenings, and I am not welcome out there, cause I 'get in his way'. So the days are all empty, and the nights are too. I understand that all of these things combined are making life worse. I understand that stressing about it all makes my shoulder worse. I am cause in a loop that I don't know how to cut, and driving myself deeper into depression with every turn of the wheel. I can see it, I just cannot seem to change it.
bleh.
Sparrow