AHHHHH...

[wolfsmistress04]

after Goddess only knows how long of getting maybe 4 hours of sleep a night, last night I went to bed at 10 and I actually slept all night - I just got up about 10 minutes ago. I actually woke up at 7:30 and spent the next two hours in that half awake/half asleep cozy stage. Maybe it was out of sheer exhaustion - physical, mental and emotional -

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[wolfsmistress04]

Thank you - so far the anger is holding but when it finally fades I'm hoping that strength will kick in.

[lunagypsy]

As I am picturing the whole situation, I think that would have done it for me too. All those little things on top of one another...the ring, the movie, the leaving like a pouty ass...you did a good thing. And getting some sleep, now that is good too! You need that.
He didn't seem to take anything you said seriously. Everytime you expressed your feelings, I get the feeling he patted you on the head like a dog just to sate you, and then went back to doing whatever as soon as you were out of sight/earshot. Makes me want to cry, I've known what thats like. In past relationships, I thought it was ok to be someones doormat, because it at least meant I wasn't alone. Only I ended up being more alone than I could ever imagine. It wasn't until I was on my own by choice, and lost my fear of it, that I was granted my "golden key to bliss": my sweetheart. I hope this happens for you, you deserve the best. Always.

[wolfsmistress04]

I think the sleep was more out of exhaustion than anything because last night was right back to nightmares and waking up every few hours. As for him, I don't think he's takingme seriously this time either and truth be told, I don't blame him because I've always backed down in the past. I'm praying that I will be strong enough to not do it again because I don't WANT to be his doormat anymore.

[indigocrow]

If you are sharing someone with another it is never a good idea to stay with them, it shows they will never put your feelings into consideration. He seemed to be very self centered from what you said. You can do better, no one deserves to be treated like they are second class!

[wolfsmistress04]

It's not so much the sharing him, it's the dishonesty behind it and the lack of consideration for my feelings has a big part to play also. But you're right, I'm done being his second choice.