As I follow this democratic nomination...I think about my own country. As Canada may head to the election polls again this seems like a time for change here too. I listen to Barak Obama....I watch the voter support he receives..I look at Hilary Clinton who ran so aptly against him. I look at Canada and I see..Stefan Dion, Jack Layton and Steven ( Read more... )

A long time ago in a land far away ....I came to my senses. THe fairytales though enticing must stop. I live now in a time wehre my heart is still as confused as always. Where I suffer at the hands of my self every day. Where the times of peace are fleeting and soon lost. I live where I meditate in order to escape the tricks of my mind. I am still ( Read more... )

 Emotionally. I guess. I don't know. I know that I'm home alone again..I had a nice day. I felt myself just feel so sad today. I am sad. But not crisis sad and I don't seem to want to even talk about it b/c I feel like that will propel some sort of idea about where I'm at. Fuck. Who cares. I don't know I guess I do. I know some things now. I know ( Read more... )

  You know it's funny you don't really understand how a person can actually project out their negative crappy self until you link your life with them and before you know it:

You hate your life too

THE QUEST:

This is an important concept brought forth by David Hume. For me it concerns this statement : GENTLE WITH YOURSELF

I know what Gentle is..do I? I've seen it on T.V. and with other people..I have an idea of it. I know what Yourself is..myself is..of course to a certain degree only....NOW can I imagine Gentle with yourself?

THE OBSTACLES:
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"to comfort than to be comforted to understand than to be understood, to love than to be loved. For it is by self forgetting that one finds it is by forgiving that one is forgiven ( Read more... )

I woke up four times during the night...why? PAIN. My arms..they are so sore...they wake me in the night asking me to help them and I can't do anything. I have to submit them every day to more work. I ...oh god...I feel so scared about my body. It is hurting so much all the time and there is no relief in sight. I'm stretching thanks to the advice ( Read more... )

I feel a bit ...far away..from some things. I feel distant from myself. The WORK has taken over really. I complain a lot feel so tired and hurting. I don't know what to do. I wonder why I'm here sometimes you know. Is this what I really want? I know many would pee their pants for this opportunity...but at the cost of your will? My life is ran by ( Read more... )

It's funny I'm so exhausted. I'm angry too. The undermining nature of the male form is frustrating. I am exhausted. I find myself wondering why I'm doing all this when I feel unsupported. STOP. BREATHE. He's there shiny eyes..knowing glance...pride, gratitude and understanding. He will be home with me soon. Laying in my arms as I arise at dawn to ( Read more... )

Soooo...let's see ( Read more... )