I didn't personally know the Cal Poly student who killed himself over the weekend, but my friend Amanda did. They were in the same major. She's so terribly torn up about it. It just made me think as I was at the GRC banquet last night, with my fellow majors, having fun and drinking wine and talking. If one of them committed suicide, even if we ( Read more... )

Today was terrible, but in the end, it is days like this that remind me really how much people in my life mean to me. 
Chen, crass as he is, listened to me wail and rant without so much as a sarcastic comment. He's one of the few constants in my life, someone I can always go to for a (mostly) silent ear. We've both changed a lot since high school ( Read more... )

One of my favorite kind of dark jokes is, 'How do you make God laugh? You make a plan.' Nobody ever makes a plan that they're gonna go out and get hit by a car. A plan almost always has a happy ending. Essentially, every plan is a tiny prayer to Father Time. I really like the idea of a plan not being seen as having definite outcomes, but more like ( Read more... )

I just came back from watching The Secret with my friends and I must say, it is absolutely the most terrifying thing I've ever seen come to fruitation.

Basically it's this book/movie that's become a huge cultural trend thanks to goddamn Oprah and her book club thing. The entire thing is based on what they call "the law of attraction", basically ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

I interrupt the cryptic poetry and song for an update on the more mundane aspects of my life:

School is going well, though I can already see that my upper division GE class is going to be a bitch. 25 pages of reading/night, with half the reading comprising the tests. And no study guides. Oh dear. And it's an environmental science class, which I ( Read more... )

I've had songs from Owl City for a long time but never quite listened to them carefully until now. 
I never realized how wonderful of a lyricist he is. I tend to concentrate more on the lyrics than the music and technique when I listen to things and that's why I love Death Cab and Belle and Sebastian and The Killers but have only a certain taste for ( Read more... )

 You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could ( Read more... )

no matter how much we try to delude ourselves,
no matter what we say or hear or write or dream
some things will never, ever change

I don't know if that's good, bad or anything at all, but it's the truth.
There are just some things I can't talk myself out of, no matter how great of a debater I may be.

Due to my busted superdrive on my Macbook that renders it impossible to burn CDs, I ordered a FM transmitter/charger for my iPhone a few days ago and it arrived yesterday! It works far better than my old one and I only get a little static. It'll have to do until I have a car that successfully integrates with iPods and iPhones (like the Sync system ( Read more... )