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when my mom died i felt numb, as cliche as that sounds. i didnt really feel overly emotional about it. i had my moments, sure, but i didnt really grieve like i should have at the time. then the bullshit with my family treating her death like it was an inconvenience turned that leftover grief into hatred for my mothers side of the family ( Read more... )

oh woe it is to be me, to have a crush on a 19 year old grime artist from the u.k. who's only like 4 feet tall.

last night at about 11 i was craving munchies so bad that i spent my last 10 bucks on a shitload of white castle. holy crap did that ever hit the spot. i then went to bed right after that, instead of, you know, walking around or something. i put up an away message on aim to relate to that very notion, and my buddy paul from louisiana left the ( Read more... )

friendship should not be one sided, buttercup.

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been a busy weekend for me ( Read more... )

recently ive been self-doubting myself a lot. asking if i should have done this or said this when or where. regretting things ive done or said over the course of the last 2 years or so, oft and on. looking back on everything ive gone through since 2003 is pretty funny, a lot of the things ive said/done are completely laughable. i just want to ( Read more... )

im fucking miserable. like, really bad.

i cant wait until the end of may.