16th Trauma

Apr 29, 2011 15:41

[There are few things that can shake Satori Komeiji up. She's seen everything, heard everything, and felt everything ( Read more... )

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nothing_is_grey April 29 2011, 22:45:08 UTC
You should not deny yourself your feelings and embrace them properly.

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 00:31:59 UTC
That's easier said than done.

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nothing_is_grey April 30 2011, 03:05:43 UTC
That doesn't mean you can't try. Even acknowledging they're there would be a start.

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wondering_eye May 1 2011, 04:51:00 UTC
Maybe I am trying. Maybe I'm so out of touch with them I don't know where to begin.

...Or maybe I don't have them to begin with. I don't know.

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mansfirsttrap April 29 2011, 23:08:37 UTC
Satori...

[He was with standing close by after humoring the drone to be the good father he tried to be, but he too noticed the eye that made Koishi and her sister different. Once the droned daughter had left, he made his way to find Satori and Utsuho-- and was only able to find one of them after hearing those quiet words.]

He lowered his head and closed his eyes for a moment when he took in a deep breath.]

... you're a very strong girl.

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 00:31:38 UTC
...No, I'm not. Even now, I'm just demonstrating how weak I am.

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mansfirsttrap April 30 2011, 00:40:10 UTC
[He'll reach out to pat her head and lower himself to eye-to-eye level with her.]

You may think so, but I can see you are trying so hard. You're trying to not let the pain and the loss get to you, which makes you strong. This isn't easy, I know this. But it's not wrong to feel like the way you are now either... but we must keep our heads still high and face whatever comes next at us.

Satori, can you honestly tell me this is what your sister would have wanted if she were to see you like this? You and your sister are good people. Strong people. I can just see it with your heart on how you are acting right now that I am not wrong. If you honestly felt nothing, then I would be worried-- but you must keep going on for Koishi's sake. Maybe she will return again or you will return to her... whichever comes first would be the same end result: you two will eventually be reunited again. You must be strong until then... can you do this?

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 00:47:17 UTC
My sister has never gotten what she wanted.

[The words are bitter, and Satori spits them like poison. She squeezes her eyes shut, holding back a fresh wave of tears, and then continues:]

...You're right, of course, but this is too much. Before, it was different. I knew Koishi wasn't here. I knew she was...somewhere in Gensokyo. Somewhere familiar and somewhere she could explore and enjoy herself.

But now I don't know. I don't know if this is her or if it's just an empty shell. I don't know if I'll ever see my sister again. You can say we'll be reunited, but do you really know that for certain? Of course not. There's no way of knowing.

I want to be strong for her, but I can't. I'm a failure as a sister once again.

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aliensinyour April 30 2011, 00:23:05 UTC
... Hey. I'm coming over, okay?

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 00:30:04 UTC
...Okay.

[For once, she doesn't have the strength to argue.]

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aliensinyour April 30 2011, 00:38:06 UTC
[Which leaves him surprised, but he won't snark about it. Not today.

You'll get a knock on the door after fifteen minutes there!]

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 00:40:50 UTC
[Satori answers the door almost immediately. It's not like she was waiting for him or anything!]

...Hello.

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bridgetroll April 30 2011, 03:03:02 UTC
[.....Oh.]

....Huh.

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 03:04:11 UTC
...Jealous?

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bridgetroll April 30 2011, 03:10:58 UTC
[For once?

....yeah, there are stirrings of those bitter, burning feelings. There always are, because they've lived in Parsee's heart for centuries already. But at this moment they're just embers now- no fire, sick and hot and self-loathing. Parsee's not happy about this, either.

Not that she can admit it. Not that it would do Satori any good. It's more comfortable this way, isn't it?]

No duh, Komeiji. Your bird thing still around, at least?

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wondering_eye April 30 2011, 03:13:04 UTC
Yes, Utsuho is still here.

She has a name. Use it.

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