Heaven is not a place you go when you die
Well yesterday I did something REALLY dumb. I told court that i spent all my time at UM imagining us there and how happy we would be
now im pretty sure she thinks im an obsessive stalker freak and she isnt even going to try to visit me
now she didnt say that, its just a feeling i get
yay i manage to mess up about everything i do, aren't ya'll proud of me
but this weekend was still ammusing, whether it is guys in dresses and purses, drinking coffee with tampons in it, or sitting on rocks overlooking the water with shelley and just talking, it was pretty good. I wont go into details
UM loved me, I basically have guarenteed admission to their honors program, and a high scholarship chance. yay. I will be there with david brady, and whoever else decides to go there, and we will have fun. JENNA STILL HAS TO DITCH STATE AND COME TO UM. I mean honestly this girl has a 31 ACT, and she wants to go to state over UM :-p I mean really!!
but today after school I talked to wazzzzzz, went to coffee with clair-bear, and then had my speaking soiciety banquet. Yay. Best season speaker. (the best award!) Chalk up another accomplishment to brag about to colleges, what a fun paradigm, i could get into any school I want, but I cant afford anything but UM. I wish i was rich. I want Duke, I want wharton, I want UNC, I Want an ivy, I CAN GET INTO THEM. I just cant pay :-(
another nasty thing happened to spite me today, I told you if I trust you, so yah just kinda deal if im snappy the next few days, cuz the thing i secretly wanted more than anything came true, and i relaized that it is hell.
this last block goes out to clair-bear, sweety dont worry. He is a shallow dipfuck. plain and simple right there, from everything you have said about him, he doesnt deserve the time of day from you, much less your affection. now me on the other hand ;-) :-p
a song for ya'll. this one is amazing.
My empty promises Led to our demise And I could never tell you how I really feel and for that I eternally apologize I hope you never forget the tapping at your window With the harsh cold and the jealousy running through my bones We were both selfish, but I think I was more I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of myself that I have never seen Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun And I guess these things just tend to fall apart And I hope you feel the same My empty promises My empty promises Brought us to an end I just hurt you and I never looked back now I have no logic to defend I hope you never forget the tapping at your window With the harsh cold and the jealousy running through my bones We were both selfish, but I think I was more I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of myself that I have never seen Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun And I guess these things just tend to fall apart I would like to thank you, for showing me A part of the world that I have never seen Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun I'm forever indebted to you I hope you feel the same You seem like such a big part Of my life and my heart But the truth is I've found something new And she easily towers over you You seem like such a big part Of my life and my heart But the truth is I've found something new And she easily towers over you