And I am alone
ok now here is another rant!
this will only be understood by people who have truly been in love, everyone else will be like nahhhhh hes a moron. i am. but still. you do not know that you are in love the day you ask a person out. you do not know hte week after. you dont know the month after. I may give you 6 months, but it isnt something that happens immeadiatly. I see these people profiles
I LOVE YOU MIKE
week later
I LOVE YOU JOHN
and Im not even joking, I made up the names mike and john but yah. no you dont love them. you dont know what love is. I know I take the phrase I love you very seriously. I say it to my friends who i truly do love, but when I've only ever said it to two girls, one was like what I just bitched about, the day after I asked her out it became habbit. The other i loved. It took me 2 years to realize I loved her, well I had some inklings starting at about 1, that it was something else. It was almost 2 years before I told her that I loved her, and her that she loved me. Love isnt something that just happens, you dont fall in love in a week, you dont fall in love with numerous people. you fall in love with one person, and until you do, you wont know the difference between love and the lusty-like you have for the boyfriend or girlfriend you claim to love. I'm not saying you have to be in love if you want to date. hell no. love grows. its something that matures as time and mutual respect mature. Please however don't say you love someone until you do. heres a quick test to see if you do
is there ANY doubt in your mind that you love them, I mean any, can you see any flaw in them, or are all tehir flaws bonuses to them. If you have ANY doubt of your undying love, it isnt love. if you see any flaw in their personality it isnt love. Now I wont say you wont fight when you are in love, but sometimes fighting is more fun than civility :-p and making up usually makes the relation even stronger. so its fine to say: rachel is amazing! or kelly you rock my world! those may be true. but I highly doubt you are in love. I highly doubt many of you know what love is. I know there are exceptions, many of you too numerous to mention here. And once again I fully condone relations where you dont love the person, because hell how will you get that time for love to grow, unless you get to know the person better than you know yourself. one day that knowledge of them, your friendship and trust that bestfriendship will blossom into love. and it will be something you have never experienced
youll remember reading this, and be like damn nick was right. You can't trust someone youve just met, tell them everything, run to them at every failure or success. that is what you do when you are in love. that defines love.
I want to love someone again, but I know it will take a while. I will be patient, it will come