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I haven't written in a while. Listening to Metric's new album and loving it... give it a listen. I broke up with Ash. I did it via text message, which I feel sort of guilty about, but he lives all the way in Homosassa, and he works til like... 3 in the morning most of the time. We didn't date for much longer than a month, so it's not like we ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes... I don't want to stand too still, or for too long in one place, because the time passing seems more obvious that way. I think about the people I'm not with, the places that I'm not in, the things I'm not doing. I can't just sit still, I can't just stand in silence. Sometimes people just need to relax, but it's harder for me and I can't ( Read more... ) -
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Looking at pictures from Volusia Pride, the event I was helping to organize. The festival was yesterday. I wanted to keep up-to-date on pictures and statuses yesterday, but I think it would have just made me depressed. I wanted to go so bad, but it wasn't feasible. I don't have a job here yet, and I don't want to take my dad's truck all the way to ( Read more... ) -
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I got back from a bike ride a little while ago, and it was really nice, I experienced a lot. Nothing "extraordinary," but... every-day-extraordinary, if that makes sense. Just the sort of things you experience when people tell you to wake up and smell the roses ( Read more... ) -
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I just took a Xanax for the first time, for fun. Not sure how I feel about this. I'm unbelievable. I steal from department stores, I steal from my mom, I cheat on homework and even on exams, I fall for the wrong people, I cut myself with Venus razors, I drink too much coffee and I yell at the dog and I yell at myself. What the fuck is wrong with me -
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Hope is the only thing that is stronger than fear ( Read more... ) -
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For a while, back in early September I think, I called this journal "Pursuit of a Quiet Mind." I've since stopped calling it that, because I think that pursuit is endless. Not in the hopeless sort of way- I just think peace is something a person should always strive for. I'm not going find it in two years (not likely) so why have hundreds of parts ( Read more... ) -
An email to my old counselor
Original email to him:
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"Onion"
Sort of an autobiographical piece I wrote in an hour when I was feeling down ( Read more... )
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