Comments | wont_miss_abeat: i am the knot in your stomach

wont_miss_abeat

i am the knot in your stomach

Aug 12, 2004 16:06

okay so i dont usually like to write about what im feeling because i dont think that it needs to be public most of the time but in this case i just wanna say it and get it off my chest and yeah ( Read more... )

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kellynsami August 12 2004, 17:54:51 UTC

thats weird, i went through the same thing a few months ago..it was horrible...i knew something was wrong, but there was nothing i could do about it. My mom thought i needed to see a psychiatrist, or something, because i just wasnt happy. After a while it WILL go away though. And having a job definately helps, because for me, it made me proud that i actually went out and took a chance with something. No one told me to do it, and none of my really close friends were doing it with me, so i met a lot of people all on my own, and things have gotten better for me..and they will for you too. For once i was doing something because I wanted to. Just hang in there. i cant wait to see your pictures <3<3<3<3<3 you lots.

wont_miss_abeat August 12 2004, 19:18:36 UTC

oh my god sami i love you. yeah for a while before the cruise i was really unhappy. and there wasnt really a reason for it...just nothing was going GREAT you know? and yeah my mom and i have talked about my seeing a counselor. but then iw ent on the cruise and i am actually happier now than i was then because i met new people and did different things and got a little variety into my life. but then i came back and i just missed it. im not unhappy right now...just bored with everything. i wanna go to college haha. and im afraid that my sadness will come back but ill just be careful. and yeah work helps...meeting new people and everything. we will talk more about this later but thank you sooo much. i love you. and if u are ever feeling down u know u can come to me. <333

kellynsami August 12 2004, 19:55:08 UTC

i think that you meeting those people and then being torn away from them probably has a lot to do with it, because it was the one thing that was making you happy at the time, and then it suddenly went away. I agree w/ the college thing, i want to go. Ive talked to my mom about it, like where i want to go, and I really want to go away to college rather than staying local and living at home, because i really feel that i missed out on the whole highschool experience, no seniors and stuff, but im dealing w/ it, and i want to get the WHOLE college experience. You can talk to me whenever you want too, you know that! <3<3

wont_miss_abeat August 12 2004, 23:10:49 UTC

yeah i agree with you about all that. i definitely wanna live at college...wherever i end up going. ive known that for a while. and even though it would be awesome to have a close friend go to the same college as you..i think it will also be cool just to go by yourself and almost start over you know? ok so we are on the same page...haha. love you sami thank you for everything.

kissat_redlight August 12 2004, 18:23:19 UTC

yeah when i came back from NY i felt i was acting a lot different too. weird.
i hope everything gets better for you!!! i'm here if you need to talk or anything :)

<3

wont_miss_abeat August 12 2004, 19:20:55 UTC

that is very weird...maybe its just u trying to get back in the swing of things? haha i dont know. thank you sooo much megan. i may take u up on the offer and talk to you about stuff. thank you. much loooove.

kissat_redlight August 12 2004, 20:40:05 UTC

welcome :)
<3

poisonivy918 August 12 2004, 22:56:57 UTC

whats happened in life makes you who you are today. so don't have any regrets :)

wont_miss_abeat August 12 2004, 23:12:07 UTC

thank youuuu hehe. and i know. but its hard not to wish i had done some things differently you know? but i know in a little while it wont matter <33

hmm... anonymous August 13 2004, 09:36:53 UTC

Katie...i'm really really glad i read that cuz i seriously was really really worried that u were mad at me and i couldn't figure out why u would be mad at me or be acting like that. But, i seriously understand how u feel...when i came back from st. maarten i was like uhhhh like i didn't want to be in VA just because i had just met chris and he was amazing and i wanted to go back there more than anything cuz it was sooo damn amazing and then i came to CA and that was just as an amazing trip and coming home to VA was most definetly not fun...like yahh like u i love my friends here i jsut missed everyone so much it was such a weird feeling because i had met soooo many cool people...i dont know if its the EXACT same thing...but i think i kinda understand what ur going thru. It got better as time when on and yahh u know i ALWAYS miss you guys like crazy and of course chris...but you keep in touch with them and it gets better...but anyways i'm glad i know whats going on...you are one of my best friends and i love you like crazyyy and miss ( ... )