soo stressd out.. seriously..
i hate being in love.. i feel so stupid... but this love is differnt though.. like.. i feel everything but yet nothing at the same time.. its wierd.. it sucks i fucked it up though.. but you know stuff happens.. and all i can do is hope for the best.. it would have been really nice if i knew he loved me back.. but even ( Read more... )

In the quiet misty morning when the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing and the sky is clear and red.
When the summer's ceased its gleaming, When the corn is past its prime,
When adventure's lost its meaning, I'll be homeward bound in time.

Bind me not to the pasture, chain me not to the plow.
Set me free to find my calling ( Read more... )

gee..long time since i wrote in here..i kind forgot about it...but usually im never around to write in it...im pretty much gone all the time and when i do get home im tired as shit ( Read more... )

well.. im in frech class now ..im ssuppose to be doing some stupid french 3200 mlo's on cdli..but whatever...i decided this was more exciting.. the terry fox run is today in school but im not going to that shit..but at least its friday .. tongiht? not quite sure yet ..god knows...drinking hopefully..and well if that dosnt happen ..the other stuff i ( Read more... )

i havent wrote in here in a long time..lol oh well...just busy with school and shit..so the past like month has been pretty awesome...jsut with like being at something all the time and stuff..so i think mine and jenns being healthy didnt last long haha..i havent walked in like a week...and yeah this weekend was fucking AWESOME!!! i had such a ( Read more... )

oh myy! im so giddy its not even fit...haha..tomorrow nights gonna be nuts...woo jenn :)  and he called me tonight..so i got happy and we drove around for a bit..it was nice..i havent talked to him in like a week..yay..oh my...sooo excited for tomorrow night...its crazyyyyyyy woooooooo! going up after school...meeting up at 4:30....going out around ( Read more... )

im going healthy...well..not like a complete health freak but ..im giving up up coke and pepsie..well all soda...and im only eaitng what my parents feed me..none of this eating in between meals shit..and im walking every night...me and jenn went last night and i felt soooo good after it was crazy...and now tonight were going again..yess..a walk all ( Read more... )

oh my ...time to post another pointless entry..
well..this weekend wasnt as good as i thought it was going to be...well i already wrote about friday night..so i think i'll just write about satruday night..anyways...went to kevins..got wasted..got stoned..burned out for a bit..went home..i came home around 3.. i wasnt all that tired though..it was ( Read more... )

its pretty early in the morning... i dunno why i woke up so early...well i woke up twice this morning with two very bad cramps in my legs..that was not fun..and well..i was asleep earl last night too...but i was awoke by a very long awaited phone call..
its kinda turning out to be a repeat of last time...i dunno why i even bother..but..well..at ( Read more... )

ughh...its 2:37 and i have to get up at 6:30 tomorrow morning for school and i cant get to sleep..
i also have this excited nervous feeling...gahh