FIC: TVD; Consumption

[woobloo]

Fandom: The Vampire Diaries
Title: Consumption
Rating: high T; angst, death, nothing graphic though
Spoilers: General for S4
Disclaimer: I don't own TVD
Word Count: 1469
Summary: For aquakitty1864 for the Elena Gilbert fanwork exchange at ialwayssurvive. Prompt: Elena, We all have an internal struggle against something, sometimes it wins. It's not fluff, let's just say, but I hope

Comments

[woobloo]

Thank you! I'm very glad you liked it (and that it improved :D)

You can hear Elena's self-reflective nature, which is part of her that sometimes fics overlook.

I'm glad it came across! I was definitely going for that. The thing is, often in fics, this kind of reflection just feels strange- who does that in real life- but Elena spent years writing down her life, thinking about her life, examining everything. She thinks about her life in a 'meta' sense.

[rosaxx50]

I absolutely, emphatically did not need to read this fic. There are actual tears in my eyes because my heart is breaking for Elena, for everyone who has died (how does Mystic Falls even have a population any longer). Elena's spiral downward as she's burdened by more and more grief, as her thoughts become increasingly disjointed. *Sniffle*

She almost feels wrong in her grief, because it isn’t as strong as Sarah’s mother, who passes out, or Aimee’s brother, who starts yelling in the middle of service at nothing or noone.

D:

and she squeezes Damon a little harder, not for him, but for herself.

She does, of course she does. Elena of all people understands losing those you care about.

Her reaction is more about Stefan, and Damon, than the woman herself, which, when she’s laying in her bed, she feels quite bad about, gives herself a minute to feel terrible. She doesn’t let herself go there, though, really go into Andie’s head, because if she does, she might breakD: (also, excellent and accurate

[woobloo]

I APOLOGIZE, OKAY. :) If it helps, I also got ridiculously depressed while writing this. ELENAAA.

But thank you- the job of this fic was to make you sad, I suppose. D:

I started out by making a list of all the deaths Elena was vaguely associated with, and I was nearly tearing up by the end, because it just. kept. going.

Grief and pain and loss have become so familiar, they're almost comical now, it doesn't hurt less, but what is her life.

Ok, now it's your turn to break me. *sobs*

[scorpiod1]

Wow that was actually gutting. Especially the ending with Jeremy:

what do you have left-
-if you lose everyone what do you have left-
She has herself, what a cruel joke

and then the "don't say his name" part JESUS

like all of the sections are great. I really love how you go through all the characters, even the minor ones, and how they're all resonate and painful in their own ways, like, how comforting Damon makes her feel useful, or feeling bad for Aimee and Sarah's parents. You're great at making all the sections distinct and unique, because they could have easily all blended into each other but they all stand out.

and this part: She doesn’t let herself go there, though, really go into Andie’s head, because if she does, she might break, and she can’t let herself feel every death- at this point that’s suicide. She feels bad for thinking this way, and sheds tears.

actual perfect omg. IT'S SELFISH TO TRY TO PROTECT HERSELF FROM FEELING EVERY DEATH /o\

She rather thinks she’s found herself, if only because losing seems to define

[woobloo]

Thank you so much.

ELENAAA though...... *cries*

And Jeremyyyyyy.

actual perfect omg. IT'S SELFISH TO TRY TO PROTECT HERSELF FROM FEELING EVERY DEATH /o\

It just breaks my heart, because she can't ~not empathize, it's what she does, and yet can't you imagine what it was like, feeling like she had to feel everybody's pain and.....aslkdp;fhqelpfjkq.

ELENA OKAY. She does things to people.