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[wordslikewater]

It has been a long, long week. I'm so glad it's (almost) over

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[hate_machine]

I cannot, and I mean CANNOT work room service at the hospital *for the mommy floor* without crying at some point. I walk into a room of a Mom that has her little buddle of joy wrapped up in the basin and the tears just flood. I have the ache in my heart for another one, but then part of me just KNOWS right now isn't the time. But it will happen when it is ment to happen, I think.
I think John will come around. Having a kid is a lot different for a guy. They dont have that maternal bond. Theirs kind of grows in as they get to know the baby. Just give him time. Maybe he secretly wants one but just knows it isnt the time. Or maybe if you do get pregnant again, then he will suddenly realize he does want one.

*HUGS*

[wordslikewater]

"I have the ache in my heart for another one, but then part of me just KNOWS right now isn't the time" -- That's EXACTLY it. The smart side of my head knows how screwed we would be and how NOT ready we are to take on another responsibility, but at the same time.. that doesn't make the feeling go away!

I don't know about John coming around.. I'm hoping he will eventually but we've actually talked about it as a reason for us breaking up. Cause I want more and he doesn't =( SO I don't know. I don't want to force him into it or get pregnant on accident and have him resent me or the baby so I just really don't know what to do. I know now isn't the time but I can't wait forever you know?

*HUGS*